Recent content by toda pasa

Honest I don't mind anything you feel appropriate I feel terrible for asking . It's absolutely what I did and it's what I am now but I struggle to identify with it just because in my time of need they kind of abandoned me . For years I was putting my head in the lions mouth and got commendation...

I appreciate the thread title has been changed and it's certainly factually accurate but because of my treatment by the organisation shortly prior to Me leaving I really have difficulty identifying with that as 'me' I'm sorry to be 'needy' but can that be changed ? That's not to say I don't...

The nightmares about the gun have never stopped but the intervening when I wasn't working is what really threw my value structure out of kilter . I just thought , wrongly, when you do the right thing life and my previous occupation will stand four square behind you . Sadly I got that wrong and...

I haven't quite grasped how to reply but Just want to thank those that have posted , you have no idea how much it's appreciated .

Thanks for that , it's really appreciated .

I was a police officer for many years during which time i was front line, throughout my career i was commended for my bravery on numerous occasions disarming people wielding a variety of weapons and sustaining injury on occasion. Over a decade ago i was confronted by a violent masked male with...