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The truth about my abuser is finally coming to light for everybody in my immediate family. My sibling said they were going to tell my dad soon that they know about what he did and I’m terrified about what will happen once he knows. The reality that I’m facing is that i may truly have to do this...

I have a therapist and a pretty wonderful group of friends, so I’m lucky in that regard. I’m just struggling to ask for help.

Other than a few weeks ago, this is the first time in a while that I’ve done this. I feel like I’m losing my grip on things lately. I’ve been weighing myself, I purged yesterday. I feel like I’m out of control of myself and it scares me. I don’t know what to do.

My ex coming into town next week. I’m afraid of him, and I really don’t want to see him show up at my house. I’m worried he might.

I understand that feeling. It comes back to me sometimes, too. The feeling of violation can be unbearable. But you’re here, and that counts for a lot. Try to take a few deep breaths when you’re feeling really out of it, maybe put your hand on your chest. You’re here, you’re safe.

Safety

My cat coming home tonight really made me happy. He’s been exploring outside more and way happier because of it. I like seeing him at peace.

I can't use plain white noise, but some ASMR (there's a lot out there that could work for you) puts me to sleep. Sometimes I'll play calm soothing music that I know feels good to listen to, on a low volume. Always have a fan on too.

No matter how hard I try, I always feel this distance between myself and other people. Sometimes even between parts of myself. Diagnosed with PTSD and Bipolar 2, anxiety as well. Huge history of eating disorders. Not sure who I am or where to turn to, and looking to feel more connected to people...