Recent content by user56620

It's like you're in a dark theater, watching yourself through yourself. Your hands are not your own but simultaneously are. Similar to when you play a first person game: You control someone, but disconnected from yourself. This is near daily for me, and I practically disconnect once I'm at work...

Welcome. I also suffer with anger issues like the ones you described. Even though I received minor bullying, the anger felt when thinking back to those moments is enough to bring you back to the past. It's not a good idea to time travel, generally. Ruminating on what could have been is easier...

Thanks for the welcome. If it is PTSD, it is definitely a new symptom. If it's not, I hope treatment isn't hell to pay for. I'm glad we have treatments regardless.

I've been reading Crash by J. Ballard. It's just as shocking as the movie was, as in, not very. It is interesting to read about how worse everyone gets. After this, I want to reread either Dad's nuke or start on Blood Meridian. Maybe another Vonnegut book? If my workload allows it. Have a good...

Welcome to the forum. I'm also a newbie here. I've had an experience with trying to self medicate using weed months ago. Not good, probably won't do it again. As for anxiety, it gives me this big stomach ache like I'm starving. Trying to eat doesn't do much though :/

I'm new here and came for advice about my next steps for treatment and identifying symptoms that I am not sure are from PTSD or from an unknown comorbid disorder. My Issue: I have been dealing with some kind of paranoia/anxiety that feels grandiose, stemming from a need to protect myself. I'll...