Recent content by vcc123

Linda, this may not help.. but I know where you're coming from. After being/living as a Police Dispatcher for 11 years, thats all I knew.. all I was. Here I am having to look for a new career suddenly. I decided I wanted something where I can still make a difference in people's lives...

from vcc I dont know if this helps or not.. but trying to explain.. its hard, especially when I dont know what my brain thinks or feels most the time. I felt like I HAD to leave Utah.. so many reminders, street names.. seeing officers daily that I knew, my former coworkers, Ubu coming home...

I'm with you... After being a Police Dispatcher for 11 years and going on FMLA a time after the shooting death of one of my officers. I was fired. "Due to exhaustion of FMLA" It was done by certified letter.. no phonecall, nothing. I had already applied for long term disability and thought...

See.. he's great.. I'm very lucky. (And I feel like such a puke for hurting everyone.)

or.. what about... what about being unable to love? I feel like I have nothing to give now.. I love my husband.. but after 9 years together, of course I love him.. but not with the intimacy he wants and deserves. What if I have never really allowed myself to love anyone.. how do you...

Thanks Mouse.. I've been here for about 4 weeks now.. dont know if I made the right choice or not yet. I got a partime job.. my DR. only released me for 15 hrs a week.. but I was forced to, financially. Working for a Chiropractor.. seems pretty mellow.. and hey, I can get cracked whenever I...

Its been awhile since I've been on the forum.. I finally had to move. I had to get away from my surroundings.. I'm now in Arizona. My husband (Ubu) is still in Utah, my eldest daughter is going to be a senior and wants to stay there and finish. My 13 year old daughter has been wanting to try...

I'm so glad to hear that you're together and home.. my daily prayers go out to you.. :redface:

Must be a busy little bugger... he's been in my head too !! Its so frustrating.. feels like he's running around in there with an egg beater!! I try relaxation music.. not working lately. I did some work outside yesterday, restoring a leaded glass window section.. that was nice...

Hi Mouse.. I know you thought no one would respond to this.. so I had to be a rebel and go for it!! :biggrin: I dont seem to have any great words of wisdom lately.. my brain has been complete mush... I just wanted to say hi to ya and let you know that you're loved no matter what.

Hey Nugget.. I know its a bit late, but wanted to welcome you back. I'm so happy for you that it went well. And your humor is greatly appreciated. Laughter really helps me. :crazy-eye

Welcome to the forum Thornbird.. sorry for the loss of your Mother.. I know how hard that is. I know you'll find alot of love and support here, just hang in there with us.

Welcome to the forum Tarheelman.. its been a great source of support for me.. hope we can be here for you too. :redface:

Welcome to the forum Lynn.. being a spouse of a PTSD sufferer really sucks. My husband is so wonderful, I'm sure its pure hell living with me. I asked my husband to look at the forum and check out the spouse section too, hoping it would help him understand what I'm going through as well...

Hi Hi Ironrod.. no great advice here.. I just wanted to welcome you to the forum and say thanks for trying to help others like us. Anthony is fabulous.. and has great suggestions, I'm sure in chatting with him, you'll get some really good info.