Recent content by whattodowithhim

Sighhhggggbh, I've been in therapy for YEARS, made every change he asked of me, and then some. Mostly I end up apologizing and taking blame.

Damn I wish I could edit posts but I can't so I have to post again. I should say, overall things are good. He's not home much, works a lot. If he gets in therapy, the child could still happen. We have his son living with us. He's a good dad. If he gets in treatment and starts acccepting some...

He had anger before combat, from what he tells me. Look, I'm all about support but f$&! me, make an effort, you know! I'm wanting to smash his face in but I don't. I sit, I speak like a mouse. Soft, calm. I've had trauma too. It takes work and self awareness to see that our actions are hurting...

I'm reading. Processing

Thank you so much, from my heart. I am looking for a new therapist and need to talk so very very much. I have but one friend to talk to. H is so mad at me because I told my dad and now dad kicked him off Facebook. He tells me, yeah good job, your dad kicked me off. I said, YOUR FAULT. So...

It is sad. Sad that she doesn't feel she can do better. He is not in love with her. Or he never could have done it. It's like I said, toxic and unhealthy, it's not a reflection of love for him, rather a lack of real love for herself and a fear of being alone and starting over. I'm out. My...

My heart breaks for the little family I'll never have it seems. I'm it. They nearly all dead. On bed crying. Wtf do I do. I'm 40. No fairytales please or adopting shit. I trusted him.

I do that. Softly. i said on the boat, "I feel hurt and scared" etc. I do all the I feel crap. All the time. Even if calm, he won't see. He just deflects. Waits to respond. No, " I can see why that hurts and I will do my best to refrain"., He cannot own it. He will NOT. I tell him, " I need...

He wanted to swim, not make me. We just got the boat and I learned about the risks on marina swimming and we agreed we would take heed and protect ourselves by obeying the NO SWIMMING SIGNS posted for a REASON. If controlling someone means preventing their early death, I will take that label...

I have had it myself...from a MAN that tortured me. I am well aware. I have done my work and therapy for YEARS, Plenty of times I want to lash out...I DON"T. I do not do anything. I say, stop it, leave me be, get away from me etc. You know nothing about me, at all. How dare you label me. I am...

You're right. Maybe he will hit me next, but i am the witch. I am out too.

I will say it again, if it is PTSD, and he cannot control it, why does he never, EVER have an issue at work, 70 hours a week in sales, which is terribly challenging, stressful environment? He lets it out on me, because he thinks he can. Where am i wrong here? I am upset and hurting, this is my...