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    going to places where you were traumatised

    I more or less take my time with things. I don’t push becaue “pushing leads to breaking”...that’s me...please be careful
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    What drug could put a person out for an extended period of time?

    Well this is what I have been tryin It will. If you want it to. I was very stuck in half flashbacks and when I tossed out all of the people who brought me down and made me unhappy things started to “unfreeze”. I read about 10 books written by survivors and all of them said their mom was...
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    What drug could put a person out for an extended period of time?

    According to what I’ve read an intrusive thought is an “unwanted thought that you can’t get out of your head”. What do you mean, “a problem to be addressed?” My thoughts (for example) fly into my head about a particular ex-bf I had 34 years ago along with the humiliation and shame associated...
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    What drug could put a person out for an extended period of time?

    I disagree! This isn’t “obsession” it is an “intrusive thought” meaning it is a thought in my head trying to come up! In my experience these types of intrusive thoughts are memories trying to emerge. I will give you an example. 1 year ago I kept saying “I know my Gm was involved! I know it!”...
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    What drug could put a person out for an extended period of time?

    If there is no answer that’s fine. But every clue beings light to another piece of the puzzle. I appreciate your time, thank you. During my journey I have found that “questions” arise typically it is because an answer to my question is growing near. Thank u all so much!!
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    What drug could put a person out for an extended period of time?

    I wish I. Plus explain how I felt when I would wake up that might help. Like I was in a daze or something. I would get into the shower and seconds later 30 minutes had gone by...I felt like I wasn’t quite in “the reality of the now”. I used to tell my fiends that reality is like a bookcase and I...
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    What drug could put a person out for an extended period of time?

    I feel better knowing “how” he did it. I had a “flashback” where when I wake up my head is hurting so I knew he knocked me on the head! My junior year of high school I would wake up everyday and feel like I was in a daze of some sort. I didn’t drink or do drugs so it wasn’t me. I again got this...
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    What drug could put a person out for an extended period of time?

    I am trying to figure out what “legal, over the counter” drug my gf used to put me out? Any suggestions? He was a very handy man who had a “work bench”?
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    Piecing things together

    Is like to read about this any books that you recommend?
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    Piecing things together

    Yup! The same thing happens to me with my best female friend and this has been happening a lot!! I think that as you heal your perception changes suddenly I am not everyone’s door mat!! Keep doing your healing and the answer will become clearer. You are a normal person!! Everyone is...
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    Grateful for love, but it can't be a substitute for self-love

    Omg! What you said really hits what I am going through right now! Yes having c-ptsd makes life’s journey hellish. For myself it is being naive to other people’s motives!! Wow yes “focus on your needs. He focuses on his. And by taking care of yourself and him taking care of himself you can come...
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    Breathing funny & couldn’t speak for 5-10 minutes in therapy. Dissociation?

    I don’t think you are strange! So don’t think that my guess is that what was happening during the trauma “you couldn’t talk” so that is what you were experiencing!!
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    After a “flashback” do you feel more present day...

    Really? So sorry!! When I first started having fbs nearly 30 years ago I noticed that the odd feeling I felt when I would get into the shower had diminished. Remeber that song “I always feel that somebodies watching me”! It was gone within 5-7 years. More recently I’ve noticed an ebbing in my...
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    The Next Upgrade 20 / 21

    Hi Anthony! Great site thank u!! I have a diary and I’ve started a handful of threads. Do I have to do anything? FYI my computer knowledge is very minimal!!
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