Recent content by Woodsforthetrees

You're welcome. I remember having the same feeling and also thinking wow, why aren't we talking about this more! I often felt like I didn't fit PTSD because it's not often I'm in fight or flight but I have a better understanding now. Im glad I was able to offer something valuable to you.

This happens to me regularly. The worst situations are when I'm walking with my eyes shut and I don't realise. That's rare though, most times my mind slows down, my eyes close and I slowly fall towards the ground and then sometimes can't move or speak. I think this is the 'flop response' as...

I'm following with great interest as I'm really struggling with parts acting out. I don't have much in the way of communication. I think I'm unwell but I'm not sure. I've just ordered the book by Janina Fisher and hope it will improve my situation.

I've only ever had one visual flashback and I still couldn't make sense of it. I have so little memory from the years in question that I assume my brain is still hiding them from me but is less adapted to keeping other sensory input from me so that's what I experience. I still feel weird calling...

I feel like I'm making progressing more in recent years, I've started yoga and used to be in a choir pre covid. I found the quality of my breath has changed considerably and my core is stronger so I feel more supported internally. Learning to be in my body has been hard work as I used to have an...

I'm afraid I haven't read all the posts above as I'm having trouble concentrating but hopefully this makes sense. For me the thing I most took away from radical acceptance was "acceptance does not mean approval". I tend to deny my own experience and listen to my inner critic because they dont...

Your opening post move to tears. I'm having a difficult day and feel like you expressed some of the feelings and experiences that I have found so difficult to express. Thank you for sharing so beautifully. I do not have Did, but do dissociate often, heavy head, eyes closing, losing any sense of...

I've found recently that in therapy when I'm talking and explaining, I feel I have to stop speaking mid-sentence. It's usually when I'm getting angry and so I just assumed I was afraid of my anger but I've since realised I do it at other times. I think I've come to realise that I'm not scared...

I do this as well. I laugh when I try and speak and garbage falls out of my mouth and I also laugh when it looks like I've just fallen asleep or can't move my arms. I think I'm mostly laughing at the absurdity of it all. It's hard to describe but it does feel like I'm laughing at a reaction that...

I think my experience is somewhere in between. I lose all muscle strength so hit the floor or slouch. I'm conscious enough to be able to hear but can't open my eyes or move. It's like I'm living in a small box in the back of my head. It feels safer there I suppose. It can take anything from a...

Thank you so much for your post. It really touched me and I relate to a lot of what you say. I'm really sorry that you had those experiences. You speak with some patience and self compassion and it's instilled a little of that in me too so thank you. I think I'm nearing the point where I'm...

I can relate to the shallow breathing, at times my eyes start closing like I'm falling asleep. I also get numbness, tickling, lack of sensation and pain. I can also feel nauseous. The shallow breathing I would guess is a way of slowing your system down so you can't be heard/seen so you are...

Thank you both for sharing your experiences. The dissociation has happened in therapy but it's not really over anything particularly difficult to deal with. Once it was because I was remembering lying on the bed naked after my (ex)boyfriend ripped the duvet off of me because I wasn't up when...

I'm not really sure where to put this but I hope someone can relate. At times my body just loses all stamina, my arms fall by my side and I get kind of spacy. I don't really know what to call it, sometimes my eyes shut other times they are open, it's like half passing out. I also have a...

I cycle between shutdown (depression, numb, empty, still, on auto pilot, disconnected) and high agitation (anger, anxiety, restless, on edge, tearful). My therapist explained that if you come down from shutdown you often get more agitated (more energy) and then you come down from agitation into...