Recent content by Xephyr

And i'm nervous as hell. I've seen my new therapist a few times, and i get a few good feeling from her. I can actually talk to her about some of the things that happened. She wants to do CBT, and my first session is in two days. She explained the concept to me, and it makes sense. But it's...

Have you heard of Yerba Mate? It's used to make a kind of tea in south america, and has caffeine levels comparable to coffee. Also has a ton of antioxidants too.

When you punch a bus because it honked it's horn, then spend the next month feeling horrible about it.

I'm seeing an old friend i haven't seen for years.

When i'm stressed, i over-eat to take my mind off things. When i'm very stressed, i forget to eat. I guess on average i'm a healthy weight?

I feel scared and alone, but for the first time in years i'm also feeling hope.

I was just recently told the possibility of PTSD as a diagnosis by a therapist. I was looking for whatever information i could find, and stumbled on the forums. I'm glad i found my way here, it helps me feel like less of a freak.

I'm learning that it's okay for me to not be doing well. It's okay for me to get help.

for me, it's the only thing that can guarantee me a nightmare-free sleep. I don't like how much i rely on it... but until i get some sort of support network, it's all i have that i can rely on.

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Thankyou all for your support. I guess my main motivation for joining is to actually talk about what happened to me. So far almost no-one knows, and i don't know how to explain to people why i behave the way i do. I figure opening up online is a stepping stone to talking about it in real life...

So, a bit about me. A few years ago I went through a very tough time, which included a number of traumatic events. Ever since, I've felt kind of dead inside. After a few months, i started getting nightmares. Lots of things cause me to startle - unexpected noises, people behind me, seeing someone...