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technigirl, I think it's time for you to FB block him and write him out of your life for good. It doesn't sound to me like this is a very healthy relationship for you and we all want to stay healthy.
spmitchell3, I know how hard it is to give, give, give and not feel like you're getting anything back. The truth is, you probably aren't at this time. I know that's how it is in my world, Not only does my wife has CPTSD; but my daughter has Bipolar Disorder, PTSD, and brain damage all due to...
I do much the same things as you. I close out our day every day by say "good night, I love you, sleep well and pleasant dreams; or no dreams. This last one came about as a result of many years of flashbacks in the middle of the night. I know that it doesn't really help with the flashbacks, but...
Sarah Louise, I don't think there is a "normal" under these circumstances. You feel the way you feel and thats ok.
The fact that you are "quite a loud, some what angry girl at times" has nothing to do with you whether you were assulted or not. It can happen to anyone, anytime. And if they're...
Sarah, there can be no dought that you were raped. Whether you were drugged or not is another question, based on "Y"s behavior I would tend to believe you were.
If you really do love your boyfriend, and it sounds like you do, you need to tell him the whole story. It doen't sound to me like you...
Malaenis, you will find many people here that are only too willing to help support you. I have found this to be a great site for both suffers and supporters.
Thank you for sharing Salad, I'm sure it was not easy to open up to total strangers. I know that there is going to be a lot of support for you here.
Welcome Salad.
Welcome aboard Angelyss, it sounds like you have a long road ahead of you. Just try to remember that the more people sharing a load along the way the easier it is for everyone. I'll be happy to share some of that load with you.
Welcome GabbyEll. You didn't come across as rude or arrogant. One thing I do when people try to make me think I should be "normal" I just remember what a wise old lady once told me, "normal is just a setting on the wash machine".
Becksknox, I'm soooo sorry. But this really does prove that he is a piece if s***. He's going to marry this girl, (maybe) before she learns his self. Then she'll be trapped in a horrible marriage until she can get up the courage to get out. Then she'll need therapy to get her head on straight...
I always knew that my wife's mother was extremely abusive. I supported my wife as she went through 3 years of therapy to deal with her. We never allowed her to be alone with our kids when she came to visit, in fact I through her out of our home when she crashed through the boundaries that were...
Thank you Justmehere, what you have given me is priceless. I truly appreciate everything you said.
There is so much more to the story than what I can share over the internet, and way more than she wrote in her autobiography, but I don't want to know any more than I do now. I don't think I could...
To say that it's more complicated would (for me at least) be a cop-out. When we first met and for years after that I was told that her father was this great guy who worked for the U.N. Now I know that he was not only a pedophile, but also gave up his own young child to be used in a government...
Hi Almost There, thank you for your thoughts. You're right it has been an awful lot to take in. It's like I'm with a totally different person than I was led to believe.
I can see the growth and change in my wife and that helps keep me strong, That was the biggest motivation for her to write...
Becksknox, when my wife and I first met I had just come out of chem, dep. treatment and she recently returned from the middle east. To say we were both broken would be an understatement. She wanted someone to fix and I needed a stable relationship for the first time in my life. While in...
Becksknox, Don't ever stop making him face up to hes "ish". Sure it may push himm all the way away,but at leeast you know that you tried your best for him. And hopefully he'll see that as well.
My wife was diagnosed with cPTSD and DID about 7 years ago with all of her trauma memories repressed.
Now she has written an autobiography that describes some of what she went through as a child and young adult. She and her T felt that it was critical for our kids a I to read it so we can...
According to my wife's T, DID and cPTSD often go together when multiple severe traumas are involved. My wife had a 7 different "personas", (we named them parts) that would come out. Sometimes one would of her others actually try to get her to seriously hurt herself, (as a result of specific...
My wife's cPTSD came on like tornado. My daughter was hit by a car as she was walking to school. When my wife got the call, (at work) from the police she stood up and heard the sound of glass breaking inside her head. Everything in our lives changed apart after that. It has been seven years now...
I do. All I remember of my childhood was either being abused or watching someone else in the house being abused. I'ts a horrible way to grow up, having only memories of abuse. I even tried hypnosis to see if that would help. there just isn't anything else there.
Becksknox, i'm willing to bet it has to do with his being afraid. Like you said, you're the one who knows his story and that's a scary place to go for anyone.
ghotiff, Sometimes I have the same problem,the best way I've found to broach the subject is to walk in and just start letting it all flow out of your mouth. I know that sounds crazy, but if I don't give myself a chance to think about what I'm saying it really helps.