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I have been having nightmares every single evening for the past 20 years, ever since I was on a flight that nearly crashed. Those nightmares are never about the flight, but rather situations -- hundreds of them -- that I have no power or control over: being on death row on execution day; falling...

After another night of horrifying nightmares, I woke up too traumatized to live a halfway normal day. I couldn't leave the house, let alone get behind the wheel of a car. It is now nearly 5:30pm, and I am now feeling a mild depression come on, which sometimes happens when the level of trauma...

It's one of these mornings I am really struggling with trauma following another night of horrible nightmares. I'm so damn upset about it. It's got me all screwed up. I don't want hurt like this. I don't want to be disassociated either, as was the case the past couple of days. That's even worse...

I turned 62 today and am not in real good shape at all! This has been the very worst year of my life, as my PTSD got much worse. I have no career or relationship goals left; I am retired for good, and I have the woman I want to spend the rest of my life with. But I am living in constant hope I...

It seems I've gotten real stuck again the past few weeks. I wake up from nightmares with paralyzing trauma, then after several hours, I shut down and completely dissociate from all my emotions. The latter always causes my muscles to spasm. Then I go to sleep and the same crap occurs again the...

Nightmares are my most prevalent trigger and the one I can't avoid! I was on a plane that nearly crashed years ago, the latest in a series of traumatic episodes throughout my existence, and I have suffered from nightmares continuously since. They differ from night to night, but all have a...

Recently, I have rekindled childhood friendships on Facebook with people I haven't seen in over 40 years. I just can't tell these people the truth about my PTSD and that I had to retire on go on disability 13 years ago. So I lie about why I still don't work, making it sound like I am only...

I have been plagued with PTSD long before it was even classified as a diagnosis! Although it's roots are based in a miserable, abusive childhood, it didn't begin to interfere with my ability to function until I was in the Navy. I was officially discharged in 1973 with what was then classified as...