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Welcome to the forum, you'll find good advice and help here. I myself just began remembering my CSA, I'm 34, I lost focus, my attention span is very limited, and i have a hard time remembering things. Then the flashbacks and nightmares began. I am sorry you are going though this but hopefully...

:roflmao: There you go! love and enjoy them and everytime you wear the scarf of use the handbag you remember what a HUGE step you took today. I'm super happy for you, great job!

You should be! I like to buy myself a small gift when i accomplish somethng. Go get yourself a something nice!

wooohoooo!!! GREAT JOB!!! :tup::tup: What an amazing accomplishment.

Ya it is hard to stay focused and remind myself that he is NOT my abuser. This is all a work in progress and hopefully i can find a solution soon because i love this guy dearly and i dont want to lose him or fell like we are in 2 different worlds.

Thank you so much! I'm going to research some grounding techniques and see what best works for me. I feel if i take control then I would be more relaxed and prepared. Your right about the fight or flight response, before i started treatment i would normally become numb or disassociate if i get...

Makes plenty of sense. I think you hit the nail on the head with this. He is already reacting and not in a good why. I just need to figure out exactly what i need to tell him, when i should talk to him, and what my reaction is going to be. I am going to wait till my session with T on Saturday...

Ya my husband surprised me a couple of weeks ago by booking us 2 nights away, i got angry when he told me :unsure:, i felt like crap about it, i told him i couldnt leave work since we're getting ready for the hoilday season and we are understaffed. Thinking of him going to a session with me is...

Yes, CSA survivor :(. It really sucks. I am sorry you are going through the same thing. I get a better sweet feeling when i hear someone is going through the same thing. Before i began therapy i would become physically numb and i would start thinking of anything else just to pass the time, this...

Ya I've been thinking about just telling him i have a problem and need help. He doesnt know i go see my T, we have never had a conversation about it, so i have no idea how he might react to the idea of therapy. He's a bit old school and we don't have mental health issues in the family, so this...

I just started CBT therapy, plan is to start with that and see where it takes me.

Ok guys i need your help again.. So since i started treatment i have made a lot of changes in my life. I have been so focused of myself that i totally neglected my husband. He has no clue whats happeneing to me and i dont plan on telling him until i am ready (i don't know how long that will...

Welcome to the forum, i myself am a new member and i also just started treatment for PTSD from childhood trama. This forum had helped me a lot, it made me realize i am not a lone and a lot if what i am going through is very common and normal. Good luck with your healing! send you hugs :hug:

Thanks for your input. I just started a journal a few weeks ago but i just don't seem to have the to time to write in it as much as i think i need to. I am working on it though. I made a lot of changes in my life lately and i'm trying to make more time for myself to be able to vent out whatever...

Hi, So i have something weird going on and i need to know if anyone else goes through this and what is it. Since i started therapy i have been narrating in my head everything that happens to me during the day and night. So basically it's like im telling a story about whats happening, as if i...

it's really hard for me to reconnect and i haven't learned new techniques yet but what really helps me sometimes is listening to really loud music, i turn it on and start singing. It has to be dancing music, it normally takes 3 songs and my toddler starts dancing to make me shake out of it. If...

I agree, just explain to your T what your concerned about if you tell her and see what she says. If your not ready to say something you shouldn't feel pressured to. Unless you are currently be abused or you know someone who is, then find all the courage in you and speak up.

Guilt. That's one of the worst symptom that i experience. It's not really a text bool symptom but it should be. It eats you up from the inside out and makes you feel every good step you take isn't enough. I feel that is what you are doing to yourself now, you feel guilty that your not 100% there...

A little late to the party... I started smoking at 16 quite when i was 26. I just began vaping last week (33) and i live it! i brought the nicotine free liquid with a kinda barry flavor and just taking a drag was such a relief. it doesnt leave a bad smell or after taste. it did bother my chest a...

I started therapy a couple of months ago. I only had 4 session because she only works weekends and I'm not available every weekend. You guys are right, since i started therapy and realized i need to talk about it, i started feeling this way. I feel like there is 1000lbs on my chest and i just...

Thank you! You know the funny thing is, everytime i see a mom stressed i give her the same advice, "take care of youself first, you need to be healthy and well cared for" .. Ha it's so much hard to actually do it!

wow it breaks my heart to read this. I was raised in a very conservative religion and i am still sami religious but I've seen first hand what this kind of pressure can do to a person. making a child feel guilty, scared, and paranoid over something that has no merit is just wrong! geez .. asking...

I feel so lonely and scared of whats happening to me. I have a loving family, great job, wonderful coworkers, and a fun energetic workout team .. yet i feel soo lonely. I left my house at 7:30am and didnt make it back home till 9:30pm. i was surrounded by people the full 14 hours i was out of...

OMG i thought i was the only one with memory issues!! So PTSD can be the cause of all my memory loss?!? It has become so bad that im like you, i would forget someones name in seconds!

Thank you for your advice. My next session isn't till 2 weeks from now but I'm defentily bringing all this up with her. before i began therapy i made a list of why i am going, what i want out of it, and how I'm going to achieve it. and the first thing i wrote in bold letters was "be honest!" I...