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LOL...that is cracking me up. I'm sure mine doesn't either. Do you also have the eye contact issue. When I am down the rabbit hole as I like to call it or even when I only have my head down the hole, I CANNOT look him in the eye. When I am present I can usually look him in the eye every once in...

wishfulthinking123... I am just like you when I dissociate. I always know where I'm at physically but I go really far into my head. It's very hard for me to talk or move and everything is kind of fuzzy and in slow motion. I can hear my therapist talking but my memory retention is very spotty at...

I can relate. I dissociate a lot and I do mean a lot especially during therapy sessions. I guess when I'm feeling a lot of emotional pain I like dissociating because it takes the pain away. But I've noticed that especially the last month or so in therapy I am dissociated half the time or half...

I have told my therapist how it makes me feel. How I dissociate when he talks nice to me. I asked him to use a harsher voice when he does it and I think he has been trying to do that. He still says it. I also told him today that when he talks about how much I've been hurt and all the horrible...

I love going to the pool. Sometimes I swim and sometimes I just do walking and stretching exercises. It is so relaxing and therapeutic. Not only is it good for my body, but it provides me time to work on mindfulness and relaxation. I also use this time to talk to my parts. It takes me about an...

What you are experiencing is totally normal. That is the way EMDR works. It seems to me that you're therapist did not do EMDR correctly the first time. Everything I have read about EMDR protocol and in my personal experience with it, is that you're supposed to work through the trauma memories...

I totally agree with this post. Yes I dissociate every time my therapist gets too sappy as I call it. If he's saying nice things to me or if he's saying how I was treated so badly or whatever yeah I am out the window before he finishes. I have told him that if he is going to start talking sappy...

I am right there with you. I have talked out loud to myself my entire life. Now that I know I have parts I have even more reason to talk out loud to myself. Sometimes I really don't care. I always talk to myself out loud in the car and I don't care who's looking. It helps when I have the dog in...

I just realized this today myself. I always dissociate when I do it. It has really increased lately or maybe I am just now becoming more aware of it. It is very calming but I totally lose time when I am doing it.

I totally understand your concern but certification does not mean they have no experience in doing EMDR. I have a great therapist and he is still not certified. They have to have quite a few hours and a lot of it has to be videotaped and they are required to go over it through Supervision in...

Yeah I get it now. The problem is that I had just finished telling him that my normal adult self is usually in an older child part. I told him that adult point of views and child point-of views have always been blurred to me. As a child I always thought of myself as an adult and as soon as I...

Gia1019...thanks for your comment. It is entirely true that this was his intention. I have an alter who is causing me to have horrible stomach spasms whenever I even think of therapy or memories of any kind. This alter I believe has a secret that they do not want me to discover and they do not...

I have they usually are revealed either in flashback images or one of my others finally get up the nerve to tell me what happened. My last one that came back was revealed in tiny pieces over the course of about a month when it was all over I realize that I actually do remember the beginning and...

Thank you for the reassurance I have been totally pleased with this therapist I've been seeing him for 6 months now and I really felt like I trusted him but yesterday it's like he flipped the switch on me. We don't do CBT very often it's usually EMDR and he's always very kind and EMDR. We will...

Sorry this is so long and confusing. Does anyone else's therapist seem to get exasperated with them when doing cognitive reframing during CBT? I'm not trying to bash my therapist I know it's probably an issue that I'm having and I'm just trying to understand how to deal with it. I have some...

@justaguest...therapists are not supposed to judge or try to determine if you what you are saying is true or not. There job is to take what you say as your truth and help you heal from it. Why would you lie. If it is something that is bothering you, it is their role to help you. Don't worry...

I think it just depends on you and what you're processing at the time. I've been doing EMDR for pretty much 5 months sometimes we do it twice a week depending on what comes up afterwards we might need a stabilizing talk session in between. The last 30 days a lot of horrible repressed memories...

Congratulations and thank you for the encouragement. I'm struggling with EMDR everytime I go I dissociate so bad I was wanting to quit I'm still considering brainspotting instead maybe that will be easier. So much as come out in the last 30 days very hard to deal with but today was a success. I...

I am currently working with a great trauma T who works with me using EMDR amoung other techniques. I am highly dissociative so we are struggling to make progress on procressing multiple traumas. I dont want to quit him because I truely believe he is thd best qualified T for my overall needs and...

Sorry I cannot give words of encouragement but I am looking for the same thing. I've been going through some really hard memories lately and while I was making progress starting to feel things being or present I've started to slip down into permanent dissociation. My therapist tries to bring me...

Thank you for the encouragement everyone I will see how things go this afternoon I'm just hoping I can somehow dig deep and find some feeling somewhere or he'll probably shut it down. I understand what you're saying that they're not judging and everything but it still doesn't make it any easier...

thank you both for the comments Applejapple you described my feelings exactly. I have told my therapist that EMDR feels like torture but I can't work up the guts to describe it to him like you did. I wish I could. Esterio I am so happy that your therapist is allowing you to work on some happy...

I have never found the courage to say in words the worst part of my childhood abuse even when I told the worst part from college I kind of skirted around the actual words for what happened. I did find the courage to put the worst of it in my journal once and I just had him read it so now I don't...

I can understand how you feel for me it's very easy to just hand it to him I just say I can't tell you here you'll have to read it. Personally I could never email my therapist about anything I have problems asking people for help and to me that would just be violating his space. I freak out when...

Does anyone else feel extremely vulnerable when they're doing EMDR? I sometimes really have a problem with my therapist just watching me. It feels like I'm being tortured and he's the controller of the torture and he's just watching me go through it all. I feel so vulnerable I have such a hard...