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Deep depression has been settling in recently. I’m bipolar, type 2 so I spend most of my time feeling dysthymic, which is bearable. Then I have my fun hypomanic episodes before crashing into a rough depression. I started mood stabilizers somewhat recently, which seemed to help a little. But...

I think that is what I plan on doing. This has been in the back of my mind for a looonnnggg time, much longer than the length of time I’ve been seeing this T. And telling her about it has been on my mind for a while too, but never seriously. Although, after writing all of this out, I did type up...

@Ronin huh, I guess that’s true! I’m not super sure that I’ll actually bring it up anytime soon, though. Typing it out on a forum where i’m anonymous is one thing; saying it out loud in person is another. Even if I’m not bringing up the gender stuff. I have a hard time advocating for myself, and...

I think I’m gender fluid. Never said it out loud before. Only typed it out once before, in a paper to a professor that I knew could relate. Everyone already knows that I’m gay, I’ve been out for nearly a decade, but I’ve yet to talk about or really explore this aspect of my identity. It scares...

I’m sorry to hear you had those crappy side effects! Happy to report that it’s been close to a month since I started and no more bad side effects at this point. Can’t quite tell yet how it’s impacting my moods, but I’m also not up to the correct dosage yet, so we’ll see!

Thank you for your replies, @MyWillow and @shimmerz. I’m not going to push anything right now. I haven’t had the image flash in my head in probably about a month or 2 now as I’m finally getting more stabilized and less regularly dissociated. I guess I will just have to trust that if anything’s...

Hi @MyWillow, thanks for the reply and sorry to hear that you’re experiencing something similar. It’s quite strange that I get this image in my head but no actual memory of anything. Nothing further has popped up since this one image a few months ago, which I’m not entirely convinced is even...

Hi all, I posted this in my diary but wanted to post it to a forum in hopes of receiving some more feedback. I apologize as it may be a bit of a lengthy post... To start, I used to have this recurring nightmare as a kid. The content of the nightmare itself wasn’t all that scary, but I’d get...

Thank you for this advice @blackemerald1. I think that’s probably the best thing to do — let her know so we can work through this inclination I have to run before getting hurt, even though I know she wouldn’t do anything to hurt me. But the best I can do right now I suppose would be to let her...

Thanks for this reply and the reassurance, @blackemerald1. See, the thing is, logically I know all of this. I have my degree in psych so I’ve spent quite a bit of time learning the basics of ethics and boundaries in the counseling field. I also work in residential treatment, so I myself must...

I have a very similar situation with my dad. He sounds almost the same as yours, in terms of the emotional abuse and just being generally rude and self righteous and rageful towards everyone in the family. I am lucky to be living away from him now, but I had to move back home for over a year...

So. The title pretty much explains it. I think, after 7 months in therapy, I’m starting to get attached to my t. I understand that this is probably normal, given all of the vulnerability and openness that’s supposed to happen in therapy, but I can’t help but feel terrified. I spent so long in...

I have a lot of issues with sex, and it’s only been recently that I’ve begun to notice the extent of these issues and how they’re connected to my trauma. My sexual assault was my first sexual experience and my body reacted in ways I did not want it to. In my mind I know that sex isn’t dirty...

Thank you, @whiteraven. I’m sorry to hear you always feel crappy. I hope it’s not due to the lamictal, but regardless of the cause I hope you can find some sort of solution or relief soon.

Ahh. This sucks. I work Sat-Tues, so luckily I get 3 days off. And because of the shifts I work I’ve decided to take my dose at night instead of the morning. I’m going to contact my prescriber on Monday and update her that the symptoms stopped when I stopped the medication and see what she says...

I have a similar issue where I know logically sex isn’t dirty, that it should be a fun and liberating thing, so I feel awkward and embarrassed that I even get awkward and embarrassed when it comes up. For me personally it’s a reason I’ve yet to delve too deep into sexual related trauma with my...

Just a little update; I was able to get in contact with my prescriber via email yesterday. She said it was possible that I was just getting sick, but since I just started she told me to stop taking the medication through the weekend and to update her on Monday or Tuesday to see how I’m doing and...

Thank you for this reply @Sideways ! Lots of helpful advice. I took 2 doses of the lamictal and spent the last 2 days feeling as if I’m coming down with the flu, so per my prescribers suggestion I’ve stopped taking it for the weekend to see how my symptoms improve and will go from there. But I...

Okay, thank you! I’m not super familiar with any of this stuff. To my knowledge my LPN doesn’t have any after hours services; I’m sure if I called her voicemail would have info on who else to contact, but that’s about it. She’s said that email is the best way to reach her, so I’ve just sent one...

@Friday thank you for your response. Ahh I'm nervous now. My prescribing nurse practitioner told me to watch out for a rash, but she didn't mention anything about flu-like symptoms. I will try to get in contact with her, although I know she isn't in the office on Fridays, so I'm not sure I can...

Melatonin is helpful to me sometimes. Although there are times when I take it that my anxiety overrides it and I get stuck in this weird state where my body is trying to fall asleep and continues to jerk awake. I currently take the Melatonin gummies, 3mg I believe, which work well most nights...

Hi everyone. So, in another thread the other day I posted about my new bipolar type 2 diagnosis. I got prescribed lamictal and I'm on a very small dose for now, slowly working my way up. I've only had 2 doses so far but my body feels absolutely awful. I can't tell if I just happen to be getting...

Oh okay, that sounds interesting. I’ll have to look into it and talk to my t. I like my t a lot, and I sorta like the therapy we are doing together, but I feel like I haven’t gotten very far. It’s been less than a year though and I’ve been undiagnosed/unmedicated bipolar the entire time, so I...

Thank you for your reply, @Changing4Best ! I’m glad to hear you’re doing well with your treatment of meds & therapy. I am a little wary of having to be on meds for this forever, I’m just not sure how well I’ll be able to stick to it, but we will see I guess. My current therapist has been using...

Thank you! Yes, the nurse practitioner wrote out a titration schedule for me so I’ll be starting out on 25mg for the first two weeks and going up very slowly from there. Going to take my first dose before bed tonight, fingers crossed for no bad side effects!