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Hey @Bristol1485 I'm in a similar place just now so probably not any help to you but just wanted to say that I hope you are ok and get through this tough bit hugs x

Thank you. And happy birthday! I hope you have a lovely day with your wife! :D

Yeah I know what you mean. I heard a lot of graphic things that I myself didn't experience which made it all worse. I tried to be there for people and help them afterwards-probably for slightly selfish reasons, to try and relieve some of the guilt I had for not being able to help and avoiding...

Yeah u not agree? Tbh I think it came from when I went to the memorial-it made me a lot worse tbh

Well there is for the other survivors but my T doesn't want me to use it or speak to other survivors as she thinks it's keeping me stuck there and is a constant reminder. That's how I ended up here lol. Ha ha @Pixielicious I'm glad of the distraction ;)

Thank you I'm trying I really am it's just so hard some days. @missy meier I guess I just feel that they are doing well-dont want to burden them then they slip back again. @Pixielicious that must have been horrendous! To be honest I can't fault the service I've had from them really-my...

Could you even get some nhs treatment in the meantime?

I am so sorry for what u went through. I can't believe they have left u all this time to get therapy! :mad:

I tried -i asked my friends to talk it grumpy with them but they wouldn't. Don't want my family to know how bad thins are they have enough to deal with already. I am so sorry about ur cousin that must be absolutely devastating xx

Oh yeah I fully understand she's not my friend-its just that I won't have anybody to talk to about it when she's gone and this is terrifying. The reason I've got so bad is because I've bottled it all up. I'm just worried that without any support I'm not going to manage. My family went through it...

Thank u raven girl. Yeah I might give the vitamin d and the lamp a try actually (although gutted it doesn't give u a tan lol) I've sent an email to the samari tans so hopefully that will keep me going for the next few days. Funeral on Tuesday is going to be a challenge I think. I like ur puzzle...

It was ok thank u. Thoughts are still there but not as overwhelming. Hope u had a good day x

U sound a bit like me!! Yeah I will make sure she knows I'm there for her. I never want anyone to feel the way I did when my friends rejected me. One piece of advice for u when u eventually get ur therapy appointments try and open up once you trust them. I wish I'd done it sooner.

Yeah I think there probably is an element of that tbh. I feel that I'm only now able to start saying what I feel but I won't get the chance now if it all finishes. Yeah I'm trying to be there for her but she won't let me-I'm still annoying her with texts tho lol hugs to right back at u :)

Lol exercise has been the one thing that has helped me. Think that's why I'm having a bad spell coz I haven't been able to go for a few weeks.

Yes it is @Pixielicious :D Lol @missy meier don't worry about it. I'm rubbish with flags too :roflmao:

Thanks very much everyone and lol missy I appreciated the thought :p A wee updated went to the gym and had a long chat with my trainer about general rubbish and it's made me feel a bit better honestly can't thank u all enough-u genuinely got me thru the night :hug:

Thanks digger Yeah I've actually used the email service -some people were great and some not. Might send them a wee email thanx for reminding me. Yeah I definitely think a chat service would b amazing! @She Cat thank u so much! I hope u all have a wonderful day too Oh I live in Scotland so we...

I'm so glad u are starting to feel better xx

Thank u all so much. Today is another day - am getting out the house to go to the gym for an hour so I'm hoping that will help. Raven girl I will try that thanks. My T has never mentioned I could contact her outwith the sessions but tbh I don't think she's aware of how bad it's been. When I told...

Nite nite

Thank u she cat. I'm going to try and get some sleep. Hopefully feel better in the morning. Thanks for caring x

Thank u I just feel that I hate the person I've turned into-I used to be strong and confident. Now I can't b bothered with anything. I don't want to spend the rest of my life feeling like this. I have so many thoughts flying round my head. I feel like I've completely lost control of everything

[/USER] Oh u didn't at all - I really appreciated your post. I think it does help to feel that I am not on my own. Thank u x

thank u missy. Don't think it works as I'm outside of the US. I'll call the number I have. Thank u all for ur help. I hope I haven't spoiled ur day/night x