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I didn't know where to put this, so the "General" category seemed close enough. Autoscopy is the experience of seeing yourself. I'm not sure that's the exact right term for what I experience, so let me explain... I recently was in a group conversation with someone who was having trouble...

Okay, so. If I make the assumption she doesn't always perceive reality accurately... This is tough, because I've always believed her perception of reality is more reliable than mine. If she says I'm not a team player, that I'm not fun, that I'm handicapped, that I don't show a spirit of...

Yeah, I don't think the borderline dx fits me, either, but I don't have a good sense of self to hold onto when interacting with people. I just automatically go into mirror mode...reflecting back to them whatever it is they seem to expect, as best I can figure out. Social chameleon. It's an aspie...

I've tried to believe this. I think our "true self" is fine if it brings us together with other people enough like us that we feel we belong. But the more I've uncovered my "true self", the more isolated I've become. My T said today that maybe it's okay that I don't have friends. Maybe that's...

It is functional on the outside on a lot of levels--looks good on paper, but feels distant and unreal to me. I've about given up on the whole friends thing. I struggle with justifying therapy, since it feels so disconnected and irrelevant most of the time. I shopped around for this T, and no one...

I always thought it was "wrong" to be performance-focused...I guess I still do, and there's some shame around it. I struggled with letting my kids watch Thomas the Train because there was such an emphasis on being "useful." But once I started letting myself be task-focused instead of...

I think this has more to do with lacking a clear answer than your lack of communication skills. I've been having this experience recently in a private conversation on here... Have you found ways to help yourself think less rigidly? A couple of years ago, I started learning about the...

I've had something similar happen--including with a couple of therapists. It's like you become some sort of strange alien to them all of a sudden. Almost like they're not quite sure whether you're stupid or dangerous. I'm sure it has more to do with their own ignorance than something you or I...

Okay, this is true. That Cassandra Phenomenon, for instance, could apply in a great many types of situations: spouses of stroke victims, parents of very low-functioning children, adult child caretakers of elderly Alzheimer's patients, etc. Everyone brings their own flavors of challenges to a...

If this were just a mother-daughter thing, then perhaps. But she's also my boss. She gets to dictate certain things as a condition of my continued employment. I could refuse to cooperate and be passive-aggressive about it, but that seems childish and manipulative. So I do my best to accommodate...

I think what ends up happening is...if we're writing, then I stand my ground on things more. I'm also much more verbose, so in saying more, there's more opportunity for her to not like what I say. But when we have a phone call or face-to-face, I just submit. I back off and let her interpret...

One of my sisters also works for her. But she's the "golden child" and is never held accountable for anything...even her outright rebellion against rules (like leaving town in the middle of heavy deadlines) is blamed on me. So my mom and my sister reinforce the story for each other, that they're...

I tried hiking meetups and an aspie club. The more I think about it, the more I wonder if that's even what I want. I think "friendship" isn't at all what I expected. It doesn't make sense to me anymore. Yes, I thought about that. That seems accurate. The relationship with her is ongoing, and...

Distance from my parents or from the parts of my psyche? I'm currently no-contact with my dad. I have the minimum necessary contact with my mom to do my job, since I work for her. As for my psyche, I've studied and practiced mindfulness for a few years now. It helps me not get swallowed up for...

I think this is one place where I tend to get hung up. I've offered variations on our relationship where I could feel safer, but she doesn't want anything other than all-or-nothing. If it's not the fullest enmeshment that she desires, then from her perspective, the relationship doesn't even...

How does it help? What about it changes things for you? It feels like a cheap psychological trick to me. How does it feel genuine to you? It doesn't feel safe with other people, either. I don't think it's what THEY think of me that hurts so much. It's what I think of myself. I suspect I don't...

If I had a sizable support network, with people I was able to trust, and who were also available to me and interested in looking at the details with me, and who also had enough wisdom and insight to really be able to contribute, this might work. Problem is, I don't have that. My DH tries, but...

This could be true. What do I do with it? How do I determine when I'm being overly sensitive vs. when my concerns are legitimate? What do I do with the emotions when someone else says I'm over-reacting because they don't see what I see about something my mom has said or done? How do I set...

The whole concept of boundaries has been very enlightening to me, and I'm getting better at understanding and holding healthy boundaries with most people. With my mom, though, it's been a deeply pervasive struggle. I can't seem to separate myself from her emotions. I try, and I coach myself...

Having a color preference doesn't adversely affect anyone. Feeling humiliated because my mom calls me handicapped at a business meeting, feeling angry because she makes digs at me, feeling frustrated because she does it so subtly that I can't call her on it without appearing overly sensitive...

This isn't infallible, but mostly I focus on logic. It's a constant search for the best logic which will result in knowing and understanding and using the best rules for the best outcome. What will be most beneficial to the most people without harming anyone? What will be the most efficient use...

My T seems to be doing this whole "validation" thing correctly...following the correct protocols or whatever. But it doesn't do anything for me. Over the past three years, I've seen 4 different therapists regularly for a season (regular T for 2.5 years, 6 months of that time with an equine T...

My long-term T did some of that. The new one hasn't so much. But the new one suggested that I keep an art journal, which gave me a way to try to communicate some of the pictures in my mind. I think in pictures, but I can't draw nearly as well as the ones I see. But...it's been interesting. And...

No, not specifically. It seems like having the asperger's mixed in would make this especially complicated. It's so hard to differentiate which parts are trauma-related and which parts are autism. It stresses me out thinking about taking an exposure approach to all this. I spent 20 years...

I think part of the problem is that the treatments he's aware of being available in our area have either been ruled out at this point (e.g., neurofeedback) or I've already tried them (i.e., EMDR and equine therapy). The trauma T I saw this past spring for EMDR listed off several therapies at my...