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Yesterday, my shrink spent about 15 minutes talking about how my son needs a male role model to show him how to be a man. She held up her husband as an ideal, saying that he shows their son what a good father is, and how to be a good man. She went on and on, even going on to say that people...

It's my birthday, and as I continue to wrestle with suicidal thoughts, I do not want this reminder of my birth. f*ck today. f*ck tomorrow. f*ck it all.

A friend of mine committed suicide a couple of weeks ago. His funeral was this last weekend. I did not cry at the funeral. When I saw others crying, it felt like a matter-of-fact thing to witness, like when you might notice that someone's hair is a mess, but you don't say anything about it...

Oftentimes I feel that I am causing a lot of the suffering in the world, because I'm not doing anything to alleviate it. I see awful stories in the news, and I am overwhelmed at the sadness of it all. Children in war zones & refugee camps, people beaten or killed for their sexuality or...

I've been talking with my son about this since he was born. So many people think it's ok to just walk up and touch a baby that they don't even know. People will go up to a baby in the store and squeeze the baby's thighs. I think that is so awful, because it tells the baby that they have no...

Thanks everyone. I don't feel scared that I will kill myself. I honestly feel relieved that it is even an option. If I did not have a child who depended upon me, I would certainly kill myself in a minute. I weigh the pros and cons of having a child who is stuck with me for a parent, and a...

Yesterday my shrink had me sign a release form allowing her to talk with my wife. She told me that she is worried that I may try to commit suicide, and she wants to be able to contact my wife to talk with her about this. She told me that there are 4 steps that she may take if she continues to...

I don't even know what to say. Sometimes I feel that I am too ugly of a person to even connect with others. It's just baffling to watch other people talk, enjoy each other's comments, and form bonds. Somehow, I've managed to be married, though I am always in fear that one day, my wife will...

I have a 2-year-old son. He is my reason for not giving up.

Thanks for all of the replies. Kefira, I really like the idea of having a list of questions. I haven't had the ability to get any sort of treatment for quite a long time, and so the thought of getting it for $10 seemed too good to pass up. Apparently, it was too good to be true. I don't...

I went to the county health dept. to get some medication for migraines I've been having, and the dr. told me they offer therapy sessions for $10. I thought that sounded great and I signed up. When I went to the session, the therapist was ditzy and typed on her computer the whole time. In the...

Thanks for the suggestion. I did look into the plans. Unfortunately, the deductibles are so high that it is very much like not having insurance at all. In fact, it would be cheaper to go the therapy without insurance coverage than to pay the premium and the therapy bill. However, I can't...

I don't expect an answer here, but I wanted to post this where someone might understand. I cannot afford therapy, but I believe that it could help me if I could go. This past year, I lost my health insurance, but was able to pay for a high deductible plan to cover my spouse & child. I suppose...

The only thing that prevents me from committing suicide is my son. I do not want to leave him with the weight of a parent who killed their self. But, if I didn't have a child, death does seem like a good alternative to living with the mental health issues that I have, and a good alternative to...

I'm a gay woman. I don't really have any complex identity to share, but I've been married to a wonderful woman for almost 14 years. She, and our son, is the the best part of my life, though they all too often are affected by my PTSD and depression.

My wife just learned that her father is dying. He may go any day now. I understand my role is to provide support, but I am scared that I will f*ck that all up. Her father is a life-long alcoholic, a smoker, and he has no respect for women, though he refused to ever hold an actual job and made...

I wasn't sure where else to put this topic. I get a lot of random thoughts that are more like urges or cravings for things that I don't actually want to do, or things that I've never done. For example, I very often have urges to use pretty hard core drugs, to smoke, and to drink. I don't...

I used to have recurring nightmares with the same theme. I had these as a teenager and as a young adult, same dreams. Now that I am older, I don't have those dreams anymore. I'm not sure what stopped them. I still occasionally have bad dreams that stick with me, but I don't get those same...

Growing up, I was generally not allowed to interact with my parents. Unless I was home alone, I was expected to stay either in my bedroom if I was on restriction, or I could go into the garage if I was not on restriction. I spent a lot of time listening to music and reading. In the garage, my...

This is a really interesting question. My mother was severely abused while she was growing up, and I honestly have no idea who she would be if she wasn't so messed up from all of that. I kind of only know her as her mental illnesses and lack of education, not necessarily as a whole person. My...

After several very explosive fights with my wife, lots of anxiety, suicidal thoughts, and depression, I decided I should try therapy. That was over a year ago. And today, I don't think things are much better. I'm not exactly sure HOW to do therapy, I think. I go, I answer the questions I'm...

Thanks, everyone, for your comments. Moving is not as easy as just getting up and going. I have a house, a job, and a family here. I really like the area--there aren't a lot of people here, and there are a lot of opportunities to get outside. It's just the darkness that somehow seems to...

Ugh. Winter is coming. And it seems to want to come early this year. It's already dark and cold here, and we had several days of temps in the 60's this August. I'm dreading the long, dark season that takes up most of the year here in Montana, when the sun rises around 9:00 am and sets around...

Great question. I feel feelings as physical sensations for sure. I feel them in my chest, my face, my arms, my back. Anger is a very strong physical sensation for me, as is frustration. I feel those in my forearms and my cheeks. Saddness feels like I can't breathe, or like there is a...

Thanks. I get where you're coming from. My parents were alcoholics, and I can't stand being around intoxicated people or alcohol. I also worked for the criminal prosecutor's office for over 5 years, and that has contributed to my being averse to marijuana or any substances.