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Oh, that's a fantastically tough question! I'll be Journaling this today, thank you. I can say for sure my relationships, self core beliefs, self talk and eating disorders would be different. I might actually love myself, imagine!

I actually Googled for lists of healthy coping skills and keep it in my wallet. My favorites: paint my nails, take a long walk, call a friend, window shop, craft, blare music and sing loud, Saturday night live skits on you tube, bake, and look through photo albums. It definitely takes practice...

This is me tonight! I desperately needed help the last couple days and finally had the courage to ask my husband and best friend for help. My husband struggles with my ptsd because he's a fixer and can't fix this. So he avoids. Not helpful today. My best friend needs a break from the ptsd...

Blank. Climbing out of my ptsd flare up but it's left me blank and depleted. Grateful to not be afraid or a danger to myself today. I want to feel something. ..

I can relate to your frustration, honestly! No, just breathing isn't enough 99% of the time, but some days it's all I can muster. Best wishes, vibes, thoughts or prayers for your visit with your sister. :)

I said those exact words yesterday. "I need help". It freaked my loved ones out, they don't know how to help me and I couldn't help myself. I got sympathy, what I needed was empathy and direction. I know you're struggling but remember safety comes first, always. Make small safety agreements...

Went deep into some art and writing therapy. Discovered some sad personal beliefs and distorted self perceptions. Feeling exhausted and depleted but calm

In a bad ptsd flare up which is exacerbating my eating disorder and urge for self destruction in any form. My brain feels like fear porridge and I spend my day making tiny safety contracts with myself. I panicked and texted my best friend today and I think I just overwhelmed her. Feeling...

Sounds like you've reached crisis level for sure. Completely nonfunctional. I know you know that and I would gladly knock on your door, drag you to the dr and help you install a new fridge. But, it sounds like most of this is up to you. I can think of lots of advice and tips but the bottom line...

Today I am grateful for medication. I was triggered hard and downward spiraled quickly. I did self care, whipped out coping skills, set boundaries, cried, but in the end it was the combination of those plus medication that allowed me to really cope. Manic panic was kept to a minimum as was...

Derailed, angry, and tearful. My mom posted a picture on Facebook of me as a young child. A happy memory for her but a heartbreaking one for me. Everyone is "liking" it and it's a huge topic of discussion today. This threw me into a panic attack, took some meds, self care, but been an...

Loving texts from friends on Christmas, it's always nice to be remembered.

Slow,emotionally flat, autopilot. Sad/hard week at work coupled with the holidays.

I'm a NICU nurse and have spent my week keeping a micro preemie alive. He passed away this morning....Christmas morning. His tiny little toes are back with the One who created them. He was unwanted, unloved by his parents, and they didn't even hold him in the end. So, we held him and loved...

Sounds like you have a wise, flexible and listening therapist. Love it!

I do emdr therapy this way. I had to build up the trust with my therapist because I couldn't see her. She says it's easier to watch my breathing, body stiffening, eye movements and other small physical cues and lead me through them. She's right about that. I would ask my therapist specifically...

I'm related to a lot of sucky people who make my life harder and break me down. But I've built this beautiful network of friends, smiling faces, hugs given freely, listening ears and unconditional love. I'm so grateful for them. My true support isn't family, it's the family I've made for myself.

I was there myself last month. I have two therapists, one saying work harder and come more, the other saying +pause+. I decided to pause, be extra slow and kind to myself. Do things that are easy, non triggering and just set the hard stuff aside. Not ignore it just not actively work on it...

Came so close numerous times. Gun, knife, pills in hand and ready, but stopped. Reckless/manic behavior TONS!!! So many moments I wanted to die and did stupid dangerous stuff totally willing and ready to die. Mountain hiking in the snow, alone, without a coat. Threw myself down a ravine...

Strong fear! Even my best friend, most trusted person EVER, still convinced she's going to leave me or stand me up ALL THE TIME!!! Granted I've been abandoned by parents, grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins and a best friend. My fears are justified and my "norm" but they were all super...

content. Worked my way out of crisis, life is still a battle but I'm content with where I am, my coping skills, my relationships and my boundaries. Still so much work to do but enjoying this "pause". Content with normal life chaos.

Sleep has been a life long struggle for me. I wake up with panic attacks and my nightmares are nightly and horrific. I have 2 large labs who wouldn't let a bird fly by without barking and I find great comfort in that. I bolt lock all doors and have an armed gun accessible in a locked case...

Grateful for a much needed hug. I can't tolerate hugs or much touching but sometimes I desperately need a hug! Today was one of those days.

This image moved me to tears today. I looked just like her as a small child and desperately needed to be rescued. "Security" by David Bowman

Grateful for a friend who understood I simply needed to not be alone today. Ran errands and had lunch together. Friendship can be a very comforting thing.