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I get that. I feel that way, yet then I feel guilty for it. I believe it was my fault so nobody could have stopped it but me. Its a double edged sword. I wanted someone to stop it so I didn't have to make that decision, but nobody did, and I was too weak and scared to do it. The guilt is so...

I often wonder that too, about myself. I try to think about what face or act I must have put on for them to like me. I hate myself so much that I can't fathom people liking me for who I am...only what things I portray to them at different times.

I understand this very well. I didn't trust the mental health "system" at all after I was sent to the State Hospital from a private hospital because my insurance ran out. It was a 6 month ordeal of terror. The reason I tell you this is that despite the fear and rage I had toward this "system", I...

That sounds almost like it came right out of my head. I feel so responsible for much of my trauma. Having people pity me or anything like that seems ridiculous and I feel guilty having any kind of sympathy. Like you say, too, bringing it all up now isn't going to do anything. It's been so long...

Thanks. She was so cute eating that cone. She loved ice cream so much. I don't know how she didn't get an ice cream headache. Yes, I see her lying everywhere in my apartment. It makes me sad, but I want o remember her...then I don't want to think about it at all. Its like I'm fighting the...

I just wanted to end by saying thank you to everyone. I had to take my dog the other day to the Vet. I did give her a big ice cream cone before I brought her there. I also gave her many hamburgers and lots of treats during the week. She wasn't able to stand by herself or go outside to go the...

Thats great that you wrote that. I just gave her an ice cream. She loved it! I gave her a vanilla cone and she ate it so quickly. I loved watching her. It's amazing some things that can make a difference.

Thanks gizmo. I'm so sorry about both your husband and your pet. What a horrible thing you have been through! I do plan on bringing my Mom. She knows my dog very well. She was always taking care of her when I was away on work, so she has a lot of compassion for her. I just have a hard time...

Thank you. My real responsibility is to my dog, not to me. If she is in pain I believe the vet knows the best way to deal with it. I have watched her deteriorate before my eyes and its so hard. I understand why you waited. I don't want to give up my baby. I keep thinking that she has more time...

Are you from England? I'm not informed with the practices that go on there. I hope you can see the person you started out to see, but if not, maybe there is someone else that is just as qualified. I know here in the US it's not always a good thing to go to the hospital. It is sometimes better to...

You've never had a bad reaction to telling anyone? That's great. I wish that was the case with me. I can't imagine telling anyone now. People are so afraid of others now, particularly with all the mental health stuff going on in the news. Everything I've seen has been so negative. I'm so afraid...

I take Lexapro and don't have any reaction from it that I know of. Everyone is different though. I started low, and increased slowly. I am at 20 mg right now and I'm supposed to continue up to 30 mg tomorrow. I have had a lot of bad reactions with many antidepressants but none with this drug so...

Thanks. I don't really know what's best at this point. I just don't want her to be in pain. That's my biggest concern. I know they have depends for dogs, but if she is going to be hurting, than I don't want her to go through that now. I'm not saying your dog was in pain at all. I honestly don't...

I definitely understand that rationally. I really think it's great that you can do that. I wish I could open up more. I'm just so afraid. I did try twice before in my past and I was bitten both times. The first time I was a teen and I told my friend. She never said anything and I felt a coldness...

Hi...I haven't got my short term memory back for that few weeks. I couldn't drive myself home, but you can have someone else drive you home. They give you anesthesia so that's why you can't drive home. I don't work right now, so that wasn't an issue. I assume you could work if you allowed that...

Thanks. I am trying to make a good decision about my dog, Abby. She can't really hold herself up anymore. She falls all time and can't hold herself up to go the bathroom so is going all over herself. I clean her off every day. I just don't want to make that decision, you know? I called the vet...

Yes, I have had ECT twice. It worked very well for me both times except my memory was inhibited both times. They stopped because of my memory loss both times as well. This doesn't happen with everyone. They were very optimistic at first, but because of the memory issues they had to stop. It...

My family all moved on. They thought that it was over with. I was the only one that felt the pain that resonated from it. It was my fault though, because I told them I was ok. I Still felt horrible and guilty from everything. I hated my family for what happened. I wanted to get back at them. I...

This week my therapist told me it was time to open up to her. She tells me my emotions are locked with my past, and to let everything out, I need to talk things through with her. I have been seeing her for a few months and I now trust her enough that I probably could tell her stuff that I...

I have been told this by my therapist gizmo. I understand it rationally, you know? I do DBT and my rational mind gets it. I just can't feel it. The hate that is so deep inside me won't let any love or anything close to that inside yet. I say "yet", because I have a great therapist who I like a...

That's what I do now. I'm glad you have set up some walls for them now so they know not to cross too far. I need to do that too. My family just thinks that they NEED to do certain things to make things work out in my life, despite what I might think. But I don't speak up. I don't know how many...

I went to see my therapist today and she reiterated something that has come up quite a bit in our sessions over the past few months. She keeps telling me how bad I am at setting boundaries and that it has everything to do with my past. I let people walk all over me. I am afraid to say no to...

Yes!!! I almost killed my Grandmother because of this hate. I had plans to kill her and me at the same time because of what she was complicit in doing when I was young. The hate was so intense I almost couldn't control it. Fortunately I only scared her, and even that I feel a bit guilty about...

I have always stuffed anger so as not to disturb anyone else. Why would I want to make anyone else's life miserable? I hate myself, so it's easy to take my anger and turn it inward. I don't have any significant other. I live alone. It gives me extra time to dwell on what I did wrong...once...

I don't tell anyone but my therapist. I don't think its anyone's business but mine. Plus I have a hard enough time talking about the smallest things with my therapist, I can't imagine talking about trauma with a friend or family.