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Hooray! I got an A in my Art History class! I was really nervous about that one because I love art, but I am not knowledgable about it. I did well though and I learned a bunch. I'm keeping the textbook so I can learn more, and am going to try and take my daughter and hubby to our art museum this...

I really suggest bringing your post into session, it needs to be worked through directly so both of your perceptions of what happened are available

Congratulations in advance Mama! A little free advice from someone w/PTSD who's been there, done that: sleep, care for baby, sleep care for baby, sleep, care for baby, get some fresh air when you need it, sleep, care for baby. That's not what I did, but what I wish I had done in retrospect, lol...

He can't only think of himself, he has children and a wife. Having those wondeful beings in our life requires thinking of them, prioritizing them when it matters. I agree 110% that what you are doing is not healthy for him or you. You are not treating yourself and your children and your mother...

We all have issues, but PTSD is definitely not a hall pass. Your husband needs to cope if he wants to be part of a family, being in a family, especially with children, comes with obligations, and they're not all yours. I worry about you, sounds like you are working constantly to keep him happy...

Hi, Hashi, I'm sorry you're struggling and sounds like you're feeling confused as to the best course of action but also as to whether you are clear on exactly what's going on with you in terms of cause and effect and whether you're trusting your perceptions/judgement, which makes it harder to...

I love Jasmine Pearl green tea. It has less caffeine than regular black tea. It is made of the precious whole leaves of the plant, rolled into little pearl shaped balls which unfurl when they steep in hot water. Here's one example from Amazon (they have many varieties of it for sale too)...

I just wanted to let you know I can relate. At times I have found the option of suicide extremely comforting, reassuring. Suicide, I told my therapist in my worst moment, would be messy first, but peaceful afterward. For me, I think I just wanted that peace. I was overwhelmed and exhausted, and...

Hi Holly. I just wanted to say- I relate, and I am sorry. I'm sending you a big hug if you want one. It's hard to cope but it does get better with hard work in my experience. P.S. It absolutely sucks that we have to do the hard work- the saying about children suffering for the sins of their...

Abstract, I only just now saw your post and it cracked me up. Thanks so much. You are super yourself, I think, to always be so encouraging! It has been rough with my husband lately, very rough, but I have a couple successes to report. 1. He is now in therapy full time, once per week, and knows...

Oh yes, Ayesha, I absolutely love formal theatre! I love classical performances, ballet, dance, etc. It is such a pleasure to be among a quiet, civilized audience and get absolutely lost in and emotionally engaged with the performances. I go far too rarely, but love it when I do. I have promised...

Well, October was a rough month, but I did just get word that I earned another A in by Bachelor's program, that makes 4 in a row.

This sounds like a typical stress response for folks w/PTSD, which isn't necessarily tied to a specific memory. Fear is easily generalized to non-trauma specific situations, because w/PTSD, our fear response is distorted, exaggerated, so feeling a bit paranoid by circumstances makes perfect...

No way!!!

I purchased a full-spectrum anti-SAD type desk lamp about a month ago. I find it helpful, calming. I am not sure how it affects my PTSD if at all, except that the shadows of fall disturb me, remind me of something unpleasant, and the light helps banish those, so... I guess it is helpful a little...

I agree, there is actually blessing and bane in coming from an abusive background: I learned the hard way what *not* to do as a good parent, and was motivated to get into therapy early, and build a huge array of skills that helped me succeed in ways that might even be harder for people who...

I found this was true with me to an extent simply because my emotions as a child had not been met with empathy, so it did not come naturally to me to react empathetically, openly, lovingly with my daughter at all times. I knew I needed to do it, and often did, but in some situations, I would be...

I've found this all true and that good mothering is a hell of a lot of work, and that my best was not good enough for me, and I needed help to meet my standards. Highly stressed and reactive and all that fits to a t. It's a harsh reality but important to be aware of, because we can do very well...

Memory is imperfect, and I have not found it realistic for all trauma survivors to have a narrative type memory of everything troubling that may ever have happened to us. Damage can sometimes be done, in contrast, when we try and remember things forgotten: there is room for false memories...

I don't personally feel this state as dissociation, which for me is feeling numb, on autopilot, detached, or removed from myself more than in-drawn as when I stare like this. I find it a more introspective experience, for me.

I did some records searches to help me piece things together. There should be a paper trail, if you're really motivated to know more, but it can be time consuming and cost some money to follow it. Many of the events you mentioned will have caused the creation of records: police records, therapy...