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I should next time. Was almost sitting on it.

Its been over 6 years and I've been working with my daughter off and on for past year or so. My mother used to cut my hair at home and brush my hair when I was little. It was usually a scary experience if I moved. I couldn't even handle my daughter brushing my hair for a while. I was...

Its not bothered me before. I guess partly because what I really want and crave is vodka. I might have to switch up on my placebo. His whole family drinks at holidays and family get togethers so having the fake stuff has worked for me. I know this is my depression telling me to sneak some...

Told my therapist about this thread. She would like for me to try to sit with the idea and see if I can find something through creative writing. My organization of symptoms and thoughts is rooms in a house and there is a tiny empty mouse sized room for this so far.

I've been put on vraylar for my bipolar. My aprn lowered my welbutrin and I don't think it's a good idea now. Since my husband got home I've been thinking about adding some of his beer to my non alcoholic ones. He's done with his now but I kept seeing myself do it. Ill take my meds for the...

For me its not feeling stable enough to meet another persons needs at the time.

Look at mee, up since 3.

Depressed and angry at myself because my husband reacts as if I've been b*tching at him over little things. I guess the new med is working since I'm seeing now that he is acting like I've done that too much. I don't mean to get like that. And it's mostly the bipolar but to me not an excuse...

My niece posted pictures of her daughter born earlier today. I'm so happy for her and her husband.

Compassion for my 43 - 44 year old self. I found my diary from that time as well as some poems and grief exercises I did back then. I've held off reading any of it thinking it would upset me. Instead I'm laughing with my younger self on the way I wrote about someday getting sober. " its the...

Hope you sleep better tonight.

Trying to pick myself up though emotionally I could stay in bed all day. Need to get myself some shoes so have to drag myself out eventually today.

I'm heading down again. Not liking that I have to wait for this med to do its job if its even the right one. I'd like for this to be over but its yet another thing I'll have the rest of my life. And a trauma anniversary starts soon. Hugs to everyone else having a rough time.

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I met with a person from goodwill who will help me with job search. Liked her immediately and she seems to care about finding me the right spot. I feel I need this to feel like a functioning adult.

Volkswagon tiguan. Got it to replace the momma mobile (mini van) I've had since kids were young.

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When you are going to meet with people to find a job and your biggest fear about having a job is that everyone will hate you at some point and scare you.

Reading the bipolar disorder survival guide someone here recommended. My therapist also recommended it. So learning and homework time for me. I want to know all I can to deal with how to improve my quality of life so my family can still have me as who they need me to be. I've worked so hard...

Grumbling because it snowed yesterday. I have a bad knee and asthma so possibly slipping and having to breathe outside on a winter day are not my favorite things.

I got into a pair of pants I bought several years ago.

@arich62 have you tried assigning an impossible task to them? For example I wanted to create something but it required using a glue gun which is something that I was ridiculed for by my step father. With my therapist i set them up in a garbage dump where they have to build a sand castle out of...

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Very interesting read.