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@Echo, I think this was just a miscommunication between you and @Hashi. Tone isn't communicated well through the internet. It's clear that the intention of the comments wasn't read in the way it was meant to come across. I think we need to take a break from this.

@Echo, I think @Hashi was referring to one of your comments that you were certain I would be a good mother because I can care for my pets. If I'm reading it correctly I think that's what Hashi is referring to specifically (if I'm wrong I apologize). @Hashi, you're right, just because we can...

@Echo, my concerns and decision isn't based on the fact that I think that because I was abused I will become an abuser (although I know that is a fear for some). My decision is based on the fact that I know I am not emotionally available, and I wouldn't want to make a child suffer through my...

I've already gone through the "baby craze" phase in my life. The majority of my friends were getting married and starting families when I was with my ex. I had a huge desire to hurry up and get married and start having kids. But that's changed, for me thinking about getting married and having...

@Wyakin, I think I can handle mentioning both to her. I feel safe telling her, I'm just not the greatest at remembering everything. Since it doesn't look like I can get into see her twice this week I am thinking about contacting my crisis team and seeing if they can squeeze me in tomorrow...

@scout86, the stockpiling medications is different. I've never had an issue with my meds before or taking them. I don't "have" to take my meds, they used to help but since my suicide attempt at the end of February/beginning of March I haven't taken them consistently enough to feel the positive...

From updates on other threads I posted about my most recent session with my T. I usually choose to sit on the floor of her office because I find it easier to stay grounded and present there. I still float off and dissociate and have flashbacks but they are less frequent I find. So last session...

I also find it ironic that the poster of this thread is so concerned about her right to privacy on the internet, but threw around first names of people in her life without their consent. If you are so concerned about your privacy why would you throw out real names to make it easier for someone...

And this should be a lesson for all members. If you don't want to be identified then don't post online, especially with your own picture and so much identifying information. I've personally questioned the amount of details I've posted here sometimes, it's a learning experience. I frequently...

Honestly if I could get my tubes tied right now I would. But sadly no doctor will do that for someone my age, and doesn't have children yet. I believe in my area they will not consider it until after you have three kids.

@y5L, my suggestion to you would be to just go to the court house and change your last name to whatever you want. Then you don't have to wait to find someone you would consider marrying to accomplish this. Then that isn't even a thought in your mind when approaching a relationship with someone.

@Solara, thanks for your response. I actually don't think I would be that great of a mother anyways. I don't think I could provide the stability and love a kid would need in order to not turn into another me. I much prefer my fur children. They are content to cuddle if I'm emotionally...

@littlebluebird, it may be fear with me as well but I'm not sure. @jmni, I feel completely disgusted with the prospect of ever having sex again. It's like it is a complete turn off to me. A heck of a lot brought me to this conclusion. Numerous sexual assaults, attacks, being forced to do...

I'm 23 and I've decided in the last 6 months that I no longer desire to get married or have kids. It used to be a huge desire of mine to get married and have kids but as of recently that's changed. It's not even like I think I might want it in the future, I have zero interest in having sex...

@Echo I refuse to run and hide. That doesn't mean I'm not scared but I'm not going to hide away. @TimeToHeal, I feel like they are taking it seriously this time. Unfortunately there are no security cameras at work. I'm not doing anything this weekend other than work and trying to get my butt...

@Echo, I am going to have to watch out. I have had time to think about it but haven't. I don't know what he's capable of anymore. The police haven't suggested anything.

@TimeToHeal and @Echo, the police just called me back with an update. So it isn't "bad" news but no good news either. The video footage showed nothing, there were freaking trees in the way blocking the camera from seeing my car. There was also zero footage from the second place where I was...

@TimeToHeal, I really did get some incredibly important reassurance from her yesterday. She also commented on how good the scars look and how she thinks they will get better, but also understands why I would be very self-conscious about them. She talked a lot about love today, how it can be...

I had my session with my T today. My T ended up sitting across from me on the floor and asked me if I could look her in the eye. I managed to twice very briefly. She wasn't pushy, told me I didn't have to, that I had a choice. She talked to me a bit about communication through eyes etc. how you...

@Echo, I don't pretend to know what takes so long or what the process is. I just hope it means that they are able to do something. @TimeToHeal, I will let you guys know for sure.

@Echo, I'm alive. Today that seems like a major accomplishment. I tried to get an update about the investigation but I have to wait for the officer who is dealing with it gets in at 5pm, which means I will have already seen my T. I see her in 20 minutes. I'm ready to pull my hair out today...

@WillyKat, it baffles me as well. Not that PTSD is anything to be embarrassed about, but I know personally I struggle with embarrassment over it - I can't even talk to my family about it. I'm sure my parents know I have it as I was a minor when I was initially diagnosed with it for the first...

I think this comment is key. It is fine to do online questionnaires or wonder if you have something after you've read an article, but then you need to take it to your doctor and say "hey I read this and I feel like I fit some of what it says". Let them decide whether or not you exhibit symptoms...

They said that they would send a message to the investigation officer to let him know about it.