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No, I don't think it's based on being worthy to someone else. In a sense, yes, but it's more about me being worthy of myself. It's about me being comfortable with who I am. Me feeling natural. Me being me completely. It can be regained. I'll have to deal with the issue regarding my worthiness to...

You are not invisible. I like to believe that we are human and we make mistakes. Also, I like to believe that a sense of worthiness and self trust can be regained. This is a personal thing that we have to overcome. Even though I haven't overcome it yet, like you, I still enjoy being by myself...

Yes, I think there is a form of self punishment going on. I have made mistakes and gaining the sense of self worth I once had is a challenge. It feels like my brain is not awarding me with my sense of self worth I deserve. When you say that you must be doing something to scare people off, I...

I can understand where you are coming from. I want to enjoy life, but it seems like there is a subconscious fear or belief that I am not allowed to. I wish that I was totally immersed in the moment... enjoying it completely. I feel like when I do enjoy the moment, all of it isn't enjoyed. Only...

I am in denial because probably I cannot handle the reality of my situation. I am dissociated from people because of previous experiences with two people. I am dissociated from life because I see it as Darwinistic. I'm not sure if intellect will be able to get me back to normal. I don't feel...

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Abstract, I understand what you are going through. There is always a feeling that the life you are living is a lie or is less than what it should be. It's like you are not in tune with who you really should be... The way that you were created and supposed to be. When I think about my past, I...

Thanks for the responses. I understand. Sometimes I wonder if I am deficient in certain neurotransmitters such as serotonin or dopamine. What makes me very angry is that I am not consciously choosing to have a defense mechanism up. I do not want any defense mechanisms up. I understand that my...

I have an awareness that there are two identities. There is a pre-trauma me (for 21 years) and a post-trauma me (for five years). The pre-trauma me was sane and confident in his identity and character. The post-trauma me wants to believe that he is sane and confident in his identity and...

I'm glad that we both share similar experiences so we can learn about getting better. Prozac is definitely helping me. Every time that I take it, the PTSD symptoms are less severe and it feels like I am rebalancing as a person. It is helping me think about my issues. I hope you feel better :).

For about three weeks, I have been going to therapy. For one week, I have been on medication (Prozac). The reason I am on Prozac is because there is a feeling that death is always attacking me and causing depression or that life is working against me. For a while, I've realized that my defense...

No, but I view them as interesting to learn about. I'm going to study more about Jesus. Honestly, I think my issues have to be tackled personally by therapy, medication, and other health-promoting means.

Recently, I watched a video regarding having a spiritual experience. It was stated that people tend to want to connect to a spiritual presence... one that is fulfilling. This could be Jesus, Allah, etc. Personally, what I tend to have an issue with is when I do try to connect with Jesus, a...

I know ScaredofLonely. I still like to see things in a posttraumatic growth way, not an always being damaged way. It's stated that PTSD is incurable, but there is a way for one to feel normal again and live a fulfilling life. I'm trying to figure out how. When there are people that want to...

The only way I'll be normal again is if the people that disrespected me don't have a grip... I don't let them affect me, but emotionally, it is still there that keeps me at square one.

Telling him how much I've been affected will just display more weakness. He knows what he's done. In the idealistic way of trying to enjoy life, I've tried forgiving myself and not seeking retibution to those that hurt me. In reality, I'm on prozac and going to therapy. If I can't be normal...

I lost my faith too. However, I'm going to study Jesus as much as I can so I don't have a feeling of abandoning God. There has always been something inside that has told me "you need to deal with your issues". That is the voice I'm going to follow right now.

I've been to two therapy sessions so far and there is a natural feeling for me to let some feelings out. After what happened, I lost my sense of who I was. Being depressed shouldn't be a norm. There is depression, but when it becomes chronic it becomes clinical. One day, I'll be able to be open...

Thanks for the response, circe47. When you are speaking about "hardwired", I believe, because of how I feel, that the negativity can be processed and incorporated into one's life in a productive, satisfying way. The pain can be defeated. I use to see my pain as a gift. I became a more caring...

Do any of you believe that, after the trama(s), the brain has been programmed to make you suffer? It's like no matter what you do, you don't have the capability of happiness anymore. The brain is programmed to not accept happiness and your role is one that suffers 24/7. The brain will always put...

The reason I developed PTSD symptoms was because of shock from what had happened. I was emotionally being disrespected by someone that always tried to get the upper hand and hurt me. He is my older brother. He used to be a drug addict and now he is clean (if you consider clean living off of...

I disagree. For example, I don't think 6x3=18 can be debunked by any facts. There are many days that I wish God was by my side, but my pain hasn't disappeared. As I continue therapy, hopefully I'll gain more spiritual strength and confidence.

I have been a person with strong faith most of my life. However, I learned that Christianity didn't make rational sense anymore. Through the years, I became more skeptical because academics is an interest of mine. It was very traumatizing being in a state of confusion when I had to come to grip...