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I've spent Christmas's on my own in the past and it is really hard. I feel lonely now even though I'm married and have children. You can be surrounded by people and still feel alone. But, being completely alone is worse. Christmas is such a hard time for so many people. Maybe those who will...

I've had PTS, plus dissociation issues & chronic insomnia for the last 20 years since my worst trauma. PTSD kicked in around Jan 2012, leading to a near complete breakdown by Aug 2012. Officially diagnosed with severe PTSD with delayed onset and MDD Aug 2012.

I feel exactly the same as well. Tired of fighting depression, tired of fighting anxiety, tired of trying to find energy and positivity for everyone else. Tired of saying it's okay, it will get better and knowing it probably won't. Sick of having a head full of memories of abuse, pain and hurt...

This is exactly how I am. I don't trust anyone except one friend to have genuine reasons to be caring about me. I always have a theory as to why they bother with me and it's always in their self interests and not about me. My emotional barriers are really high and really thick. I think it...

Hi and welcome to the PTSD Forum :)

Hi and welcome to the PTSD Forum :)

Hi there, Welcome to the PTSD Forum :) There's lot of really lovely and supportive people here, take your time looking around. Shellbell

I don't really understand how when we are all different and think differently, we are supposed to know the 'limit' of sympathy, empathy, compassion, or whatever we are meant to allow to give to others, or expect from others of this forum. One persons limit of what they feel is adequate or...

It all depends on whether it's just PTSD as to what medications are required. It depends on what symptoms you have. I have severe PTSD and MDD and chronic insomnia, so need strong anti-depressants, otherwise I would be suicidal and in hospital. One of them gets me to sleep each night...

Some days my children are my only reason, other days it's all the other people around me who I love and who care about me. One day it might even be because I love myself enough.

Mindfulness is very necessary for me at the moment as I have a lot of dissociation when anxious and stressed. My T has done a lot of work with me on this and I'm not great at it, but getting better. I think even without dissociation it is very helpful to be present and enjoy living in the now...

There is healing for everyone in this journey, it may not be complete healing and we may never be 'normal', but I do believe there is healing, if that remains our focus. My T is wonderful and I am very distrusting of people. But I have studied her hard and I know she has my best interests at...

I think there is too much tolerance in the world these days. People are expected to tolerate what is basically wrong. The stuff going on in your neighbourhood is wrong AS and it would p*ss me off too. There are groups who feel entitled and interpret that as being allowed to do wrong and no-one...

Bubz, yay that is such great news!!! I am really happy for you! :D :tup:

I had a text from a friend, sometimes the small things make me really happy :)

LC23, what dose were they on? Dose can range up to 750+ mg. Lower doses like 50mg are much safer.

I agree many of these heavy duty drugs, espcially anti-psychotics are scary, but the alternative for some people is worse. If I weren't taking the 3 I'm on, I may not be here now. Seroquel XR at a low dose of 50mg at night, helps my sleep and does help maintain my mood swings, and I would...

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That's not good Maggiemay :(

Maggiemay, sorry your meds are still not helping you sleep. The Mirtazapine & Seroquel make me really tired all day too, but they do help my sleep. I only take both in the evening. I haven't tried Seroquel in the day yet. I hope you start to get some decent sleep soon.

Hi and welcome to the forum :) It was clear to me as well reading your intro, you didn't intend to kill your Father at all. You learned the aggression and violence from him and therefore, his own violence and child abuse ultimately was turned against him and what happened to him could just as...

Thank you Smushroom and Abstract :)

Smushroom, sorry I thought you were referring to mental health services. Yes, I agree Medicare in Aus is a lot better than a lot of countries health system. As for mental health, 10 sessions a year is no where near enough to deal with severe PTSD from complex trauma. Although, I guess better...

I'm in Aus and I don't have free or cheap access to mental health care for PTSD, as far as I know. I have to pay for counseling and can only be admitted to hospital if I'm actively suicidal and then will just get pumped full of meds and let back out. If you know of cheap or free services, I...

I don't think nightmares are flashbacks, as often mine will be about trauma, but will include things that didn't actually happen and I don't rely on them for accurate recall of missing memory. I am aware they are distorted from the truth. While awake, I have a lot of intrusive thoughts about...