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Thanks for the replies, we have been in couples therapy for some time. It's been difficult but helpful. I'm glad things are coming up and I am also having a hard time not feeling pummeled by all the anger. Snowwhite- I like what you said about not being on the same wavelength, that's a...

I am having a hard time coping with complaints and criticisms from my husband. He's been building anger and resentment for years and starting this year has been a lot more vocal. A lot of the things he is unhappy about are things that directly have to do with the PTSD and depression like not...

Are the people at work doing things that alienate you or are you guessing what they are saying and feeling uncomfortable around them? I have found when the PTSD was really bad for me it was not so much the things that people were saying and doing but the things that my brain is interpreting...

Jan 31- I'm glad you reached out here and at the psych ward for help. I can relate to a lot of what you said, I was neglected and abused as a child too, I had an alcoholic father and a mentally ill and abusive mother. I too was very fearful of other kids rejected and was alone most of the...

Gizmo- yes, I agree it is outgrowing people, you said it really well when you talked about growing awareness for my own personal needs. silkleaves-thanks for your kind words, yes, I understand that "awe that anyone even wants to be my friend", thanks for understanding.

My PTSD is much less severe at this point in my life and I am looking back at the past and to some extent the present and realizing that my mental state contributed to the types of friends I had and have. I feel like I got taken advantage of to some degree and mostly I formed friendships with...

I can relate a lot to this post. I struggle up and down with feeling like there is not point in life and I just want to end it because I don't get joy out of life. I go to work to a job I intensely dislike, don't get a lot of joy in hobbies and struggle to feel like there is any point in life...

I think I would have blown my lid had I heard someone say to me, "it's only blue skies and sunshine from here on out". That is such a poor way to try to be supportive. If she is a good friend, you might consider taking her aside and letting her know that though you appreciate her support...

Thank you everyone for the support, it's good to not feel so alone in all of this. Solara, I think you accurately described some of how I feel about taking meds, I do feel like if there is a cause to my mental health problems, I should be able to "fix" it myself and be healed...

I am getting really frustrated with feeling like the long term abuse I suffered as a child permanently changed my brain. I feel like no matter what I do, the negative things I learned from my parents come back to haunt me. I have tried many types of therapy and am still in therapy today, it...

RedLuna- I feel your pain because I am going through a relapse of depression right now. I'm sorry you've had bad experiences with therapists, no one, especially a therapist should make depression seem like it's all your fault. I like to hang out here when I am losing hope, it helps me connect...

Hashi- This is a really brilliant post and I can relate to a lot of it. Several years ago when I hit a point where I had processed a lot of my trauma but was still very depressed. I would say that was in the same space as you in regards to feeling inauthentic because of feeling suppressed...

I started to delve deeper in therapy, looking at the way I saw myself and all the pain and shame I carried with me every minute of the day. Even though I felt like I had dealt with those things before, I was finally able to look at myself with compassion and feel my feelings and move through...

I still drink to get a break from my feelings of anxiety and depression. I don't drink as much anymore, maybe 3 drinks or so which is way less than I used to when I was staying up all night drinking to escape my pain. I guess I know it's a little too much but it's better than some other ways...

VERY well said. Especially the part about going off meds and the symptoms still being there, that has been my experience as well. I have been on varying doses of lexapro for well over a decade, currently on 2.5 mg and hoping to transition off in the next few months. The higher the dose I take...

I agree with what people said in general about proper nutrition affecting mental and physical health, it's not just gluten. And I have heard that the wheat we have today is so much different than what we had 100 years ago, I'll have to check out the rice pasta because I am a huge lover of mac...

I have had PTSD and depression for decades and have used medication, therapy and yoga for most of that time until last year. I grew very frustrated with feeling like the misery that was my life was always going to be barely manageable and so I started trying alternative treatments. I got some...

It looks like others on this forum have the same trauma library as I do:) I second the suggestions of "Waking the Tiger" ,"The Body Remembers" and especially "8 keys for Safe Trauma Recovery". The latter has concrete steps you can take to help to heal yourself and I found it the easiest to...

I'm so glad this thread was started. I have PTSD and have also thought I had aspergers though I have never been diagnosed. I frequently feel like I am "acting" in social situations, I know what to say and do but it doesn't feel natural or even sincere a lot of the time. Before lots of therapy...

Good for you for calling the suicide hotline when you needed to, that takes a lot of courage. I have utilized the Samaritans service which is an email service where you can get support when you feel suicidal. It was tremendously helpful, I would email them at night, wake up early and somehow...

What helps me is grounding in my body, feeling my toes and fingers and connecting to the present time, I also remind myself that the trauma is over, that I am safe now. And I keep running through these things until I am able to get back to some semblance of reality. Distraction also works for...

There were times when I likes my dissociation, at least I could get a break from the terror, fear, sadness and despair I was feeling. I also started to see it as a strength when I was healing or rather that my brain was trying to help me cope when things got to be too much. Overall though it...

I have felt really attached to my therapist before too. I used to think she was the best person ever, fantasize that she would adopt me and look forward every week to seeing her and emailing her in between sessions. I think part of that stemmed from not having a secure attachment to anyone...

Thank you Nativia. Yup, it is hard for me to remember what it was like to be well or think that I will ever be well again. Thanks for the encouragement to feed my senses with quiet joys and treats, I think I really need to do that.

Thank you JD9900, that helps. I have to go back to work on Thursday, I am worried that I will completely melt down by then. I've never been so close to not being able to put thoughts together and feeling like I am just going to scream out in public. Again, thanks for the support.