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I'm a bit shy to discuss this, it feels awkward, but it is important to me. I was always a gentle, somewhat vulnerable girl and I was sexually abused as a child and adult. As a teen/young adult and even now I have problems with setting sexual boundaries. An example: just recently somebody I...

I received an intensive inpatient treatment for PTSD. We had daily EMDR and exposure therapy, 6 hours of sports a day and education about PTSD. It was extremely tough, but had good results! Before starting it I had a diagnosis of severe PTSD and (trauma related) psychotic disorder NOS. After I...

I have been struggling with PTSD, trauma related psychosis, anxiety/terror, depression, anger and anhedonia for years. I got psychotic again last winter, was severely drugged and send out of the ward. I felt dark, flat and suicidal. I thought I'd never recover. But now... unexpectedly... I feel...

I feel like a really bad person at the moment. I feel like I have become worse than my abusers. I don't like the person I have become at all. I can't feel much love, happiness or empathy anymore, if any at all. Not even for my 5 year old son. I used to love him deeply, but now I feel detached...

I normally have lots of issues with low self-esteem and guilt. Especially when it comes to my relationship with the father of my son. I feel so stupid and weak for getting him involved in my son's (and my own) life and letting him cross our boundaries so far. But today I felt proud and strong...

Maybe there is already a topic about this, but I couldn't directly find it. The last week I've had several questions from different people and I've been telling some things. It's always a bit of a search what to tell and what not to tell. How do you people tell about your illness(es) and the...

Today a somewhat new friend (we work together on a care farm) asked about what my diagnosis is and what the reasons for my trauma are. I notice that I find it really difficult to talk about that. I know this friend is suffering from complex PTSD herself and has been through lots of bad stuff...

After five years of doing nothing but handing out meds, my pdoc now proposed something new and good: they want to send me to a new and intensive inpatient PTSD program, in a clinic specialized in complex PTSD. It's an 8 day program (2x4days) in which they do lots of very painful things (EMDR...