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Well then, let me log back in here to do something worthy of a ban. How about you go f*ck yourself, little administrator who is probably ineffectual as f*ck in the real world, so starts up a site so he can regain the power he thinks he ought to have. I have an attitude now, but didn't before...

Seriously? I post something that's a stock photo and get a sternly-worded warning about it? Real nice in a PTSD forum. I'll save you the trouble of banning me if I slip up again. I won't be back.

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Just one so far. I could talk to the guy for hours if he let me. The response from the manager was on par with the attitudes I've received from others too. Things like, "It can't be that bad. At least you're not starving in Africa", "Stop dwelling on the negative", "You have to choose to be...

That's a challenge for me. I'm very reluctant to be vulnerable with people. Even when I admit my weaknesses, like with my P.T.S.D. to some co-workers, I couch it in terms of strength. Sort of like, "Yeah, I have P.T.S.D. but I keep marching forward." I'm very fearful that if I ever simply...

My snap judgements about people often turn out to be correct, but sometimes they're WAY off. I can't tell you how many times I've looked at someone I was introduced to and thought, "This guy is a f*****g douchebag," and it turned out to be bang on. On the other hand, I've been bitten by people...

No, no. It's fine. I know everyone has their triggers and I don't want to cause anyone here to feel bad in any way.

Fair enough.

For how long have you been aware you had P.T.S.D., if I may ask?

Thanks for your kind words. There are times when I enjoy being alone and doing my own thing, but there are times when the loneliness just steamrolls me. I wonder if I'll at least feel a little better when I get back to work.

I just wish it wasn't true. Maybe it's not and I can work out of this, but things aren't looking good in that respect.

Your last sentence brings to mind an interesting situation for me. You're correct that we should evaluate what is actually true versus what we perceive to be the case. The difficult part comes in trying to figure out what is actually true. Now the interesting part I referred to is the fact...

That's a good question, since I don't enjoy anything anymore. Everything is tainted for me by the ever-present background of life's futility.

People love to virtue signal about how they understand and have compassion for those afflicted with mental illness. It seems to be all talk. They either think you're exaggerating or faking (as if I wouldn't love to be "normal") or they think you're going to end up going on a killing spree or...

I have an immense problem trusting people. I often want to and, when I've tried, I end up feeling betrayed. This has burdened me for decades and I have no one to truly call a friend. I fear that, due to my advancing in years, I'll never have close friendships or even romantic interests. It's...

Sorry wisteria, I omitted directly answering your question. Yes, the insurance company has said they'll pay for six sessions. After that, I guess I'll pay on my own if still necessary to see him. I'll probably go back to work in late April, since sitting here at home is causing me to feel an...

Hello to you too! Nice to meet you. You and I sound fairly similar, but the main difference is I never got married nor have I ever had a meaningful relationship. A pathetic life, really. I kind of lucked out on getting a good therapist. The only reason I got one at all so quickly is because I...

I'm up for it, although I don't know how we'd do it.

How incredibly let down I feel.

I've had people do this to me a lot. I don't mind listening and trying to help others with their problems, but it'd be nice if people would reciprocate. I ended up getting into an argument with a woman I know who had a tantrum on me because I dared imply that she wasn't a good friend to me. I...

This is my experience also. Additionally, people are more unreasonable.

Yeah, I've contemplated the "Where did it get you?" notion before. My answer is that, no matter what I do, it gets me nowhere. If I don't react strongly to someone who thinks they can walk on me, then I carry it around for a long time and feel like a eunuch. If I do react strongly, I get...

I do that, but apparently I sometimes go overboard. I'm just tired of being walked on, so I react intensely against it. Life is a learning curve all right. I just can't seem to figure people out, though.

Sorry to hear about your heart attack. I'm glad you made it through. Isn't it appalling that such medical "professionals" as the ones you alluded to actually exist? You're at a low point in your life and need a helping hand while these people seem to take an almost sadistic glee in slapping...

Hopefully your psychiatrist is a good one. I went to see one about fifteen years ago and he was awful. It seemed like I was just a part on a conveyor belt to him. I'm pleased with my psychologist, though. He seems really genuine. How do you handle three meds? Any side effects?