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Oh and I can't draw to save my life ;)

I do art therapy all the time. I also keep an art journal. It's been a HUGE help to my healing. Sometimes we color, paint. Sometimes she gives a certain directive, sometimes she just gives me the freedom to do whatever. I have trouble verbalizing how im feeling a lot or I shut down, art helps...

I see myself as an annoying kid. :( I tend to be lost in my head at times and other times I'm super social. It's confusing to others.

I regret NOT reporting! One of my sexual abusers went on to abuse his child and the guilt I feel is horrible. I wish I had the courage to tell someone and to end the cycle. It is a tough situation, either way is a hard road, but at the end of the day, I don't think you will ever regret sticking...

We have done containment/grounding exercises before, but not yesterday. It wasn't even that tough of session, but we did go through a list of events, which I think thinking about later, was highly triggering. Today I am a little better. Def. not as depressed. Thank God! I ended up opening up to...

I'm having a really rough night tonight. I had therapy today and while the session wasn't hard at all, it stirred up stuff. Now, I'm having flashbacks and tons of intrusive thoughts.. I wrote in my journal but that seems to have only made things worse. I tried some distractions, (watched movies...

Wow, I totally give you props! You are very on top of identifying your feelings and self- awareness! I think it's time to find another therapist! Stability and reliability are very important in therapy, and it seems like your therapists has forgotten that. It stinks, especially when you've built...

Welcome! I can say I've been exactly where you are. It does get better. I'm still stuck in the whole process, but I know I am in a far better place than where I was 8 months ago. It's painful stuff and as you rip open that wound it's going to get worse (more painful) before it gets better. But...

Welcome! I would def. bring it up to your doctor and maybe talk to your mom about it. That was a very scary situation to go through, and you very well could have PTSD.

Can you answer my questions I stated earlier? It will give me some better insight to offer some suggestions

I'm sorry you are having a rough time. I have a couple of questions. Why do you keep going to therapy if nothing works? What are you getting out of it? How do you cope with PTSD now? And lastly, what are some of the other reasons for therapist firing you (besides the scary thoughts)

@Jane.l that is so awesome!! Good job!

Thanks guys for the feedback. I feel like I'll be doing this forever, there's just so much there. Every time I make progress, I feel like something else comes up.

How many EMDR sessions have you had? I've had several different traumas, some smaller and some more severe and longer lasting. So far, I've had 5 EMDR sessions, but feel like I'll be doing it forever. I've read up on different sites online, and it almost seems like most of them say you should be...

@Solara no I haven't, but it wouldn't hurt to try it. I look him up. @Jane.l & @digger1 she says to journal them down and bring them in. She has asked me if she could read them, but to me that is harder. At least the act of sitting there while she reads them. Maybe not, having her read it...

@Jane. almost 8 months. But this isn't my first time in therapy. I was in therapy for 3 years as a teenager, but never opened up. I was forced into going. But now, being in my late 20's, I know I need it.

@Jane.l She texts, not email, but she has suggested I write it down. And I have. Maybe I'll bring it in this week. I just want to be able to speak. And you are so correct, I was told multiple times not to tell, and then by my parents, that what I say doesn't matter. :/ Does it get easier?

@Abstract Sort of. She's mentioned she seen me struggling to talk, she's completely understanding. She doesn't push me to talk, maybe I need to tell her how important it is to share the details so she would push me, a little. hmm.. ugh. She did suggest writing it down and then bringing it in...

@Abstract I'm not sure. I keep telling myself to say something, anything. But nothing. I'm usually fighting back the tears and trying to prevent a flashback or panic attack. I guess the fear that speaking up will cause me to just break down. Getting the words out is just so hard.

I've been seeing my therapist for the past 8 months. I've made huge progress since seeing her. I trust her, and that is huge for me. However, I still freeze up around her when it comes to talking about the sexual abuse. She knows some stuff, the basics, but when it comes to sharing the details...