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I actually don't know a whole lot about borderline and the differences and similarities with DID and C-PTSD. Any info on that would be amazingly helpful. I was recently hospitalized and the doctors mentioned borderline but didn't explain.

I'm so sorry for the way you were mistreated in the institution and for the hurt you've suffered from abuse. I know it's difficult, but having PTSD is nothing to be ashamed of. Many hurtful and unsupportive people will have us think it's shameful and weak but it's not. You are not alone here...

I I too have had embarrassing sexual reactions to flashbacks. I've never really admitted to that. Thank you for sharing that. I does make me feel so ashamed that I sometimes react that way.

I told my therapist today. I had to write it down because of words that I can't say. She told me that this is actually a bit more common than I thought and completely understandable given what I told her about my abuse. My abuser would routinely stimulate me to the point right below climax and...

Yes, my roommate knows I was raped. I've shared with her my whole sexual abuse/rape history. She's been a true friend and a wonderful safe support person in my life for nearly 5 years. She has been present for countless PTSD episodes.

I am mortified. I had a bad episode the other evening. It started out strange. The world looked like it wasn't real. Nothing felt real. My vision kept focusing and unfocusing. My eyes darted around like crazy. I couldn't seem to stay looking at one spot for more than a second or two. Sections of...

@RavenGirl I am so sorry for what you've gone through. It's always heartbreaking to hear that someone can relate to my trauma, comforting bc I'm not alone, but heartbreaking bc we're both familiar with suffering no one should ever have to endure. You mentioned a trauma diary. What is that? I'm...

I totally get the not wanting to be a burden feeling. But have you asked yourself what you would want if the roles were reversed? Say you have a friend who is struggling with suicidal thoughts in the middle of the night. Would you want them to call you? I know I definitely would. About calling...

My therapist diagnosed me with DDNOS. She said that could change as she learned more. I had just resolved to stop hiding symptoms from her and told her so right after she shared that diagnosis. I shared about the dissociating into different ages with their own memories, voices, and behavior as...

My therapist pointed out to me that I haven't always been suicidal. There was a time when I wasn't and I have been suicidal on and off in the past, so it follows that I will not always feel this way. It will pass and what I need to do is distract myself until it passes. It was a perspective I'd...

I do very much have two scripts running in my head! I thought I was crazy! There's the me in control and the me that's usually in control and trying to gain back control. I argue back and forth, sometimes not even argue but I make suggestions bc I know I usually don't listen to arguments. Like...

I don't seem to be aware of the passage of time, like how long it went on, but I remember what I did. It just felt like I was the passenger and someone else was driving. I couldn't seem to be able to get myself to snap out of it. It's really scary.

Okay...wow. Lots of in depth replies. I will say this is all way over my head. I'm just now opening up this can of worms and examining it after denying for many years. Is there like more of a basics to this. Does my description sound like parts? Beyond the different younger ages (involving young...

Okay, so I've read a few posts that mention parts. Some people with parts say they have DID and others don't have DID. I've also heard the term "co-conscious." I don't know what that means but I'd really like to. I am just now starting to face the possibility that I have parts. Let me explain...

This is one of the strangest things I do. Sometimes, when I dissociate, I take off my clothes. I feel like a freak. Does this happen to anyone else? It's so embarrassing. I live with roommates. They're safe and supportive and know about my trauma and PTSD. Last night I took off everything. I...

I don't have one of those names that could be anyone. I have an unusual name so I won't give that out. So...how to do an intro without a name...Well, I am 26 years old and I have had PTSD for about 9 years. I grew up in an abusive home. My mother was physically abusive, mostly to my older...