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Sometimes it's big things, such as the pain I will inflict on those who love me. It's probably the biggest reason, though in my depressive moments I actually want to save them from myself, which is false. I have to keep telling myself that that idea is incorrect. It won't save anyone. It will...

1. I want to wish you all 2. the best day that you can all muster 3. whether it means big or small steps 4. or just to recuperate, doesn't matter 5. because you are all important. :hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug:

I love silence. It's a new favourite, underrated thing I have discovered. I love to crochet. It has saved me from breaking down a couple of times. I love to annoy my partner by taking surprise pictures of him with my new camera that he bought me. I bet he regrets it now. :giggle: I love bike...

I struggle with this one so much. And then I just plaster the most friendliest smile I can muster to mask the pain from the wound it has opened within. And try not to do anything that will make people ask you if you're okay. It's hard.

@The Albatross Gimme gimme gimme! Spa sounds lush! I need to be able to decipher whether I am having one of my moments of "utter defiance" or if it's just a false alarm. It feels like a false alarm but it feels real. It's strange. I need a new brain for Christmas.

1. After watching 4 episodes of Vikings, it triggered quite a large depressive episode in me. As much as I love the whole Viking lore, some parts are.... no. Can't do it. Not yet. 2. I'm surprised my fish are still alive after a pretty significant temperature drop. :eek: 3. I underestimated...

Thank you @trying2movefwd, @Muttly and @JadesJewel. I am glad to be here.

I am grateful for the fact that during my therapy session yesterday, I learned that despite having little energy to do things, even if I manage small things, is enough.

Welcome Jess! :happy: I'm also a new person who joined a few days ago. I can relate to this quite heavily. I'm also looking forward to not having to spend most of my energy on just pretending things are okay when they are not. Maybe I'll see you around.

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Thank you @Joan :happy: After lurking around for a couple of days, I now realise what you meant by "post as you feel ready". It's still too difficult to talk but I will eventually try to.

To catch some zzz's. To wake up tomorrow actually feeling refreshed and awake. Can't remember the last time I was so lucky.

@expectingbetter two weeks to finish a book? That's impressive! In my eyes anyway.. 1. Using music to drown out my racing thoughts. Working so far. I think. Maybe not. I don't want to disconnect. Again. 2. My hands are too cold to crochet. :sour: 3. At least my tropical fish are nice and warm...

I was very young and I had nothing to compare the experience to. It felt normal to me until I began to notice that this wasn't happening to everyone else around me, or that I knew of. Why didn't anyone talk about it? Why are my friends being shown a different kind of love? That's when I began to...

A chocolate bar shaped like a letter. That I bought for my boyfriend. I bought him 3. He is doing overtime at work and won't be home until later tonight and I'm not coping with that very well. So I'm stealing his chocolate that I bought for him. I hope he will forgive me. Or I'll just buy him...

...away from my family. And I've just been diagnosed with PTSD among a few other things which branched off from it. All stemming from childhood trauma. I live that far away from my family. It was a choice that I made a year ago. To be given this diagnosis and not being able to go talk to my...