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Thanks for the replies guys. I watched/read way too much than what I’m able for. Even though I pretty much ignored him for years - and I did love his music, and actually met him too - Not sure how to quote properly sorry but CSA apologist is pretty much my made up term, not sure, he’s allowed...

I know it is not news, but I feel myself hugely triggered with this MJ documentary - especially so because a few people I know (and like) are acting like csa apologists. I don’t think I’ll ever get through to anyone (my own family included) about abuse, and adding in my day and night fears for...

We met for lunch today: all good, and innocent - I see no agenda- like I thought when I first posted. Yay :)

...a part of why I did go. However, I wouldn’t like someone to meet me just to face their anxiety, but that’s my anxiety looking through everything, yes. Anyway, It was great and I am going again on Friday, with much less panic, thanks. :)

I would love to keep you updated :) Whatever way it goes! Thanks again. ?❤️

Thanks so much! Yes, definitely. She asked too, before I got out of the cab, so I am relieved, or I would have been ruminating every.last.moment. (Nothing has happened at all yet for the record lol) ?

It went great! ? She was lovely, and made all the requests, in person, to meet again soon. Wow. Very confident. No red flags for my hypervigilance to spot - all upfront honesty like the messages. Still can’t believe I went out, let alone a date, riddled with confusion. But there you go: not...

I’ve made no huge effort just incase she concludes that’s she is definitely non-curious anymore, I’ll have an excuse... Literally about to go in now, 20 minutes late, but still going...? Thanks! :)

Ok I am going for a while. Pushing myself or I really will be hibernating forever. Wish me luck! ??

Yes that is her focus, although she has been upfront and I quite admire that. I don’t think I even like her actually but probably wouldn’t really know unless we met. I’ll see later. Hoping she cancels first! :/

I don’t know how to get out of it. So much panic over something so small, I know. Thanks for replies.

Hi there, I have a dating question I’d like some opinions on. I wasn’t sure which forum. I’m LGBT but rarely use any label. Having said that, I could be easily determimed as gay since I’ve only dated the same sex for the past 6 years. I have removed myself from abusive exes and a stalker and...

I’ve only recently learned coping skills. So I’m trying to get back to those after reminders. Began new emergency therapy which was good I suppose. And am trying to get medication. I’ve been off them for 2 years but I give in. Thank you for replies. Posting does help. ? Emergency therapy- I...

I don’t remember being this depressed and probably dissociated in a long time. I don’t know how to snap out of it at least get back to underlying low level depression which I know no different. Meeting with a suicide charity person next week and I don’t even know how to register that. Maybe this...

Junebug you aren’t de-railing the thread. I feel similar to you, and have ignored many a Christmas (happily) when I was younger. I’ve two Santa age children now so I have absolutely no choice but to get myself merry and ready, and no energy for anyone (energy suckers!) otherwise. She would...

I forgot to add: At the time (First time) I required female only help, and ticked that box (along with added info specifically stating that, incase they overlooked the box!) I was matched with a male! Who merrily greeted me, ignoring my request which was extreme at the time. I only resorted...

I hated Better Help and online ‘therapy’, as she was so rude and I’d barely begun with anything deep! They must allow anyone on there to entertain vulnerable people while they are eating their dinner. Never again. (Just my experience, I know, and am happy if it works for some.) I can’t get...

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Thank you. black emerald. Maybe I read into that wrong, plus I remember feeling awkward when she kept pushing the money on me. My very long time grooming abuse was similar so I ought to have known. I’m glad you are able to stay by your boundaries. It is a learning experience for me. She will...

Great coats! Ice-skating or in-line?

My boundaries are horrific. I only knew of the ‘idea’ about a year ago. I am aware of that. I’ve no response to these people other than isolate everyone, which I have happily done, or have people in my face. Sorry if I sound ratty to a normal reply, I’m in a very horrible frame of mind...

The money is probably the most minor point of the whole thing, But to clear that up - it was given, with over and over persistence - for my children. And I Don’t think I could have gotten out of that situation without accepting the small gift. And I did repay it in similar ways - as in hosting...

She has followed me onto similar boards, and things that she wouldn’t know, she has repeated so... On the other hand, I’m quite paranoid too though so maybe not. I’m really glad she’s gone it has taken at least some of my stress away. These people do cross into dangerous territory fast it...

Hi I hope you are ok. I have been there. I’m currently in touch with a suicide helpline because of ongoing ideations. They have been great in getting through horrific moments/hours/days. I also worry about the shame but I have given my real name etc

Thanks for that, Junebug. I’m sorry my reply is so late. It absolutely was creepy and unecessary, and obviously I’ve much bigger fish to fry, so that ‘friend’ is gone - from my eyes anyway. To think I used to only distrust lovers. Literally animals only now for my mini bits of trust left...