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I know. I am trying so hard. The coffee shop is typically one of my safe places but the smell took all my safety... I feel like I am completely failing right now. I’m trying to just breath and look at my phone. Don’t look up. Grounding is so much harder in public.

Sometimes I wander why my brain tends to focus so much on the negativity. I had an absolutely great day and the next thing I know I walk by someone in the coffee shop with a familiar scent that just takes me right back to my abuser! I know logically that makes now sense. I know I am physically...

When I look upon a sea so blue I can’t help but to think of you All the days you’ve hurt me so You would think by now I would have let go But the pain I feel deep inside I should no longer have to hide The way you made me get undressed Still today has me so stressed The way you used to hold...

My therapist has been working with me for over a year just to use the term Survivor she said I deserve to be labeled as survivor

I have been trying to open up in therapy for the past couple of months. We have decided that journal therapy will really help. I have written things that I would never talk about in therapy and I am so anxious every time I give her the Journal. Sometimes I rip pages out sometimes it’s just a...

I appreciate the congratulations. Not to say I’m not sitting here still crying over the matter. I want to be a survivor but I don’t want the label survivor. Does that make any sense?

That is difficult in the least of terms. I am somewhat in the same boat in the US awaiting disability to be approved or denied. Jumping through all of the hoops dotting all your I’s and crossing all your t’s Do you feel like you have been able to build a relationship with your therapist? I...

I have been in therapy for a little over a year. The one thing that I’ve been scared of is the label survivor. I have avoided it, I have written it and crossed it out. But never have I been able to say I am a survivor. Today in therapy we dug a little and get my past and she asked me what I...

Thank you! You have brought on the tears. I know I can make it past these fears. One day at a time. Hour by hour. I will make it blossom like a beautiful sunflower!

Sometimes I wonder what it is like outside Yes I have been there but I try to hide Wearing my clothing in my hair so well You would have never guessed how deep fell Sometimes I wonder what it is like outside I simply go along for the ride Hiding my woes and feelings too The anxiety and fear...

I’m really in no mood to write My brain is stuck on fight or flight Sitting here just trying to make sense Of what in the world has me so tense I’ve tried deep breathing with no luck Deep in my bed I wish I could tuck Except there all I see is you Causing the panic and fear to brew...

Thank you everyone for your responses. I meet with her this Saturday and I will definitely ask. I have been “abandoned” so many times I guess it is just a mortal fear of mine. I’m sure she has a great reason for not calling me back. She has been a great therapist and I’m just letting my head get...

I have been with my therapist for a little over a year. This past week I was hospitalized and she didn’t return any of my phone calls so it did not help with my depression or sense of helplessness it all. I want to make today the day that I feel great if not for myself for my son. Thank you for...