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My boyfriend and I both suffer PTSD as well so I can empathize with your pain. We're having a really rough patch at the moment (especially this week as well). I don't think your therapist should have said anything about whose PTSD is worse. Trauma is trauma and it should never be minimized...

I feel that way everyday unless there's something involved that dulls everything. It's quite exhausting... you're not alone

When depression feels so suffocating and you just don't know what to do anymore. I can't remember the last time it lasted this long. I don't necessarily want to end things, I just want to feel better. I see it affecting my work, school, and destroying my relationship. Doc added sertraline...

Today I've been so irritable, agitated, and straight up angry at the world for no reason. My mind hasn't been flooding with overwhelming stress or anything that usually drives me to this point; all day. The only thing I can vaguely remember is my boyfriend waking me this morning because I...

I actually went through a period not too long ago where I would find the positivity and happiness in everything. Even if it was tragic. It was actually caused by something and sadly it was either temporary or drained over time.. I'm trying my best to go back to that but it almost feels impossible.

I am currently dealing with something that is really stressful but I don't think it would shift my mood so suddenly since this has been going on for a couple of months now.. I really have been fighting to keep going instead of letting my demons take over so easily. I really can't think of any...

I've written and have been going over a mental list of reasons to and not to.. I've gone through the lists countless times trying to convince myself NOT to do it and even tried to focus on positive things to flip my mood but the thoughts of wanting to give up and reasons to are too overwhelming.

I've been really depressed for the past few days and have been battling thoughts of suicide all day today. Running errands helped distract me for a little but my brain goes straight back to listing all the reasons why everyone in my life and the world in general would be better without me. I...

I have devoted to making others happy for a very long time now. I've tried different methods and corrected my ways if I was unsuccessful but it seems like no matter how much I give, love, and try my everything isn't enough. I just had another incident today actually which ended up not helping...

I know suicide will only cause more pain to my loved ones. It's been the biggest reason I've held off on off-ing myself actually. I'm not just thinking about suicide though. Maybe running off far away, no where and decide from there..

Though I have not had the chance to make more happy memories than sad ones in my 25 years of life, I've still had some; enough I suppose. Some of them were really good ones. I started this year getting myself in a hospital bed on NYE for 5 days. I didn't even bother taking the opportunity of...

Wow.. You described it to a T! :D:wideeyed: I really do think we have a good foundation (underneath all the PTSD chaos). We actually talk about CPT/DBT skills and my boyfriend has helped me quite a few times with grounding myself when my anxiety starts acting up lol :) I think both of our...

Thank you, Sweetpea. Ironically, I was the one that initiated the very first "rescuing" with the whole "push/pull" thing. He was very patient with me, thankfully. To be honest, this was more hurtful to me because of his "reasons" for trying to break up. My boyfriend is one of the sweetest...

Thank you, Cashew :) All of those factors and his housing situation and my "new" trauma have definitely been testing our relationship. One after another. Then the big mess of PTSD poured right on top? Definitely have been feeling every turn on the roller coaster :wtf:. You are right. I really...

So my veteran boyfriend and I have been dating for about half a year. He really is one of the most amazing, loving, and kindhearted man I've met. The first few months of our relationship were AMAZING. We had the picture perfect "healthy" relationship. Things started to get really shaky when a...