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My boyfriend and I have been together for almost 14 years. We have two kids, a dog, the whole deal. I have struggled with depression and anxiety since I was little, and I've battled PTSD since I was 14. Pretty much until recently my go-to coping skills were to avoid, retreat and self harm. I...

I’m so tired of struggling. I’m tired of being sad and angry and anxious all the time. I’m tired of fighting. The only reason I’m still here is my kids. They’re the only thing that keeps me going. The only thing that keeps me here. And then I find myself resenting them for being the reason I...

I was assaulted when I was 16. During the assault I had this weird feeling like all my body parts were far away from me. They still felt attached, just feet from my body. It felt so real that a couple times I held my hand up in front of my face to see that it was actually where it was supposed...

Almost two years.

Ya, and when my counselor there told my parents I told them not to tell anyone. I found out shortly before I got out that my mom told several people. My current therapist knows what happened with the first counselor and he does know about both situations. He thinks that I need to talk about...

That's a good idea, to email it. When I wrote it out and brought it to my session he asked me if I wanted him to read it since I couldn't and I said no, and I thought about leaving it with him to read after I left but that didn't end up happening. I could write it out in email and send it when...

Ya, I've tried that a couple times. I've actually written it out twice but haven't been able to either read it or give it to him. But that's kind of the route he's suggesting at this point too.

So my trauma happened 17 years ago when I was in high school. It began with an abusive relationship, we started dating at the beginning of my freshman year and I was finally able to end things shortly after starting sophomore year. About a month after that relationship ended I was assaulted by...

I get sleep paralysis all the time. The first time I remember having it I was 17. At first it was just episodes where I would wake up and not be able to move. It was scary, but I learned quickly that if I moved a finger or toe I could pull myself out of it. When I was 23 I started having...