Recent content by ahershey

I was in a good place and so I began school. I also work and o am a single mom. Then, a whole bunch of crap happened. Sick grandma got evicted, and I am the next of kin and had to help her. Then I was homeless and then I became overwhelmed. I felt the episode coming on. I had a bit of...

I just began dating again. It's hard. I am learning a lot of new things about myself and how the PTSD has changed me. Emotions are harder to control/deal with.

PTSD is like a cancer of the psyche. As I read in so many replies, I have found that although I have changed, I am still me. As I heal, I learn about the new aspects of me, and how I relate to the world around me now, and how it differs from before. Sometimes, I can blend the old and new, and...

I used to be wary of medicating. Then, I tried some out for a year. I called the meds I was on my PTSD cocktail. I took 50mil. of zoloft a day, 200 of gabapentin (two pills a day, great, best stuff), and a very small dose of blood pressure meds at night. Best sleep ever. So, I got into a great...

I disassociate a lot. There is only me, though. I usually feel very calm. Too calm. I also feel numb regarding empathy towards those around me. Usually, I am sensitive to people's feelings. I know I am disassociating when I lack my normal feelings towards or around people. Sometimes, if I am...

(living with PTSD 5+ years) Today, I am overwhelmed. I work, go to school, and am a single mom. My grandma got sick last month and evicted from her property. I had been living in my travel trailer on her property. I am homeless, again. Plus I have been helping move/sell all of grandma's things...

So, I got ghosted. He disappeared right after I wrote this. Wow. I have been upset but not like PTSD stuff, which is good. Normal ouch stuff. I never even told him about the PTSD.

I have a love interest after a spending couple of years happily single. I needed time to heal after the domestic violence. A few months ago, I realized that I had a crush on my co-worker. This made me very happy. I have not felt such feelings in a while. I am glad that I can feel this way. Since...

I am a single mom. I left D.V two years ago. I was diagnosed with PTSD four years ago. I was homeless for half a year. A rapid re-housing program helped us get an apartment. For a year I spent 90% of my income on rent. I thought it wasn't worth it. So, I bought a travel trailer and struck a deal...

Yes. Go to a shelter in another town ———— It is good that your brother is helping you with your car. I left Idaho with my girls two years ago. It had taken four months for my plan to work, since my abuser would not let me be alone with both kids at the same time. I came to Cali and stayed with...

I quit my job Feb 2. I just walked out after leaving a note with my key taped to it. I left before telling off the new District Manager She is a micro-manager. Her management felt like abuse. My PTSD developed from domestic violence about 7 years ago. Working for a control freak is like being...

Hiya! Hope it is going better for you.

Peace of mind, and of soul.

Funny weird, not haha. My attorney advised me not to take a self-defense class. Due to pre meditated murder. My counselor advised against a self defense class due to "triggers". A year and a half later, I am considering taking a self defense class. Lack of funds have prevented me. I don't...

Ok. Breathe. Focus on breathing. Is there anything you do that can take yourself away from the horror? Binge watch t.v.? For me, when I am especially vulnerable, I baby myself. I nap. I eat a lot of ice cream. I cry for days and expect nothing more from myself than going to the bathroom. Because...