Recent content by AntAnt

A few days into the new year and I am starting to come to terms with my diagnosis. It still freaks me out a little, though it is also explaining a few things. I am positive for the first time since I can recall. I know there is a long way to go and that at times I will slip, but I can finally...

Happy New Year Rain

A horrible year is finally ending.Here is hoping 2018 brings the help, love, and enjoyment of life that I need. Stay strong

Thank you all I am looking around the forum and reading a few bits. I will get there Ant

Today is such a bad day. I feel so low, so empty, so hopeless. My boy means everything to me. I love him so much. It is him who pulls me through everything, even when I feel numb. I feel cheated in life.Maybe I deserve it all? But I feel as if things were and are out of my hands. I had a...

Christmas day is nearly over and I have got through it. Wonderful to watch my boy who is 7 so excited this morning. The past few weeks have been a bit strange since the diagnosis, though I am determined I will get through it now I know what it is. My mother (Womb Donor) can rot, she will not...

I will get through this, I am determined. I hate Christmas as one Christmas Eve when I was aged 4 was one of the most violent episodes. I made me believe Santa was not real at that young age and every year it haunts me. It remains so real, but I am looking forward to overcoming it now that I...

Thanks All I just went through life thinking I was nuts. I knew I was different to people though I had no idea that I had any mental health problems, seems obvious really when you think about it. This has affected my jobs, relationships, and when highly stressed I have gone and gambled as a...

Thank you all. I am still pretty new to all of this, but I will find my way around the forum and I have started reading a few threads.

I have no idea how to edit my post? I am 50, not 60. I also wonder why things were missed in me until later life when the opportunity to diagnose me was there in my earlier days.

Hi All My name is Ant. 4 years ago I was diagnosed with Severe Thought Based OCD. This summer I went to a bad place and have been receiving counselling. They thought I was Bipolar?but after seeing the specialist team I was diagnosed 2 weeks ago with CPTSD. Bit of a shock to me and I am still...