Recent content by Aprilshowers

I've held back from commenting because I truly understand where you are at and that my words won't matter. But maybe it will help a bit to know other people have walked the walk and made it (although battle-scarred and not always perfectly balanced) to the other side. I am a firm believer that...

I have a young grandchild with anxiety issues and I think this would help a lot.

Rewatching the Blacklist. James Spader is so good.

The reason I am alive today is because I lived a big portion of my life just as you are - a dissociated robot. You don't have to exist that way. Get help. Talk to people here. It won't happen fast, but it can happen. 💜

Life is always changing. So are our emotions. Fifteen years ago I was desperately suicidal and came ridiculously close (within moments) of completing my plan. Fast forward to today - life is different. I am different. My thoughts and outlook are different. I am grateful I was able to experience...

I'm going to keep everyone here WAY happy and stay out of this discussion of "what" faith is, but can I pose another aspect of it? What about someone who "lives" their faith? And no, I'm not referring to me, although I do have someone in mind. I think faith in action - alive - instead of an...

In Order: Faith Family over ego, job, friends etc. Compassion Intelligence (yes, I am a snob) Fabulous sense of humor Up-to-date on current events, world events and politics Generosity Self confident without being self-centered

You said you were isolated due to having kids. Depending on how old your kids are, my children were my doorway to my new friends and finding my support network back then. I got married directly out of college, moved away from university friends and also moved several states away from family and...

I'd go back in time and do my children's childhoods all over again. I know I could do better.

Waymaker by Ann Voskamp

"Vellichor - English - the beautiful wistfulness of old bookstores - the romance evoked by the scent of old books and newspapers"

My father was a narcissistic, cruel, abusive (in every way possible) monster who ruled with an iron fist. He was a dictator, a terrorist, and a Bully. I was terrified of him. How could that not leave a person traumatized and broken? I couldn't even pray because I was taught that God was our...

Melting chocolate. When we visited Hershey, Pennsylvania when our kids were young I made them all stand out on our hotel balcony and breathe in the smell of chocolate in the air. Sensory bliss!

A church is often referred to as a hospital for hurting people. Of course you should try it.

All the weird greenhouses I made in my kitchen worked! The seeds are growing beautifully. We can't really walk through the kitchen or eat at the table, but we'll just have to live with that temporary inconvenience for a couple of months. 🌱🌱🌱