Recent content by arobot

I dunno if forgetting faces is a part of CPTSD or if it's a part of dementia, but I feel relieved that I'm not the only one that forgets faces. Like, it happens a lot. I ride the bus for transportation, and sometimes people will sit and talk to me like they know me, and after a minute or so...

Everyone's a sociopath/psycopath/out to harm me in some way. I've done this before. I don't know how to stop. It usually leads to agoraphobia. I'm in a relationship. Of course I think the man is a sociopath. He has CPTSD, as well. We have very different traumas. He does not fit any of the...

I bit off too much. I wanted to give up. I talked to someone in real life. They were encouraging. I'm an all-or-nothing thinker. I'm confused and anxious and scared. I'm in love. I hate that they love me back. I wish my brain wasn't so full of so many heavy things. Life is hard. But really, it's...

I feel like this too.

I never know where to put my posts. I think it fits here. Compassion- sympathetic pity and concern for the sufferings or misfortunes of others. Sympathy- (1) feelings of pity and sorrow for someone else's misfortune. (2) understanding between people; common feeling. I really, really don't like...

I'm thinking about myself. Me is my favorite thing to think about. I went to therapy for the first time in years today. It actually helped, because instead of trying to 'cure' my cPTSD I was there to learn how to cope with it. I'm thinking about how the right people are in my support group. How...

I am doing this, too. I do this constantly, all the time, and right now. I thought about getting into the details. But maybe it's just enough to know I'm not alone, and to let you know you're not, either.

Thank you!

That's such a scary place for me, personally. Are you safe? When I am numb, I am impulsive. I act in self-destructive ways. If I get numb, I check myself into the hospital. I go straight to the ER. I explain that I am unsafe with myself. They keep me until I can go home again. But I am not...

I think my guilt makes me a better person. That if I feel guilty, I can correct my behavior and prevent mistakes. I am aware that it is self-centered fear. The neuro-pathways in my brain now all take me to it. It hasn't made me the source of light, hope, love and happiness that I have tried...

Oh, the guilt! I'm in AA. I'm doing a lot of 'stepwork'. Alcohol, for me, is a great way to procrastinate dealing with my feelings. I've heard that procrastination 'makes easy problems hard, and hard problems harder'. Anyways, I didn't know I did this. I had no idea, but my brain scans...

After I thought about it, I realize that I have dreamt while aware of my surroundings before. Just never violent nightmares. Thank you for lighting a candle in the darkness, for me. I try a lot, to do that for others. I didn't reply before, because I had a lot to do. But I do appreciate it.

Has anyone ever had a nightmare while trying to fall asleep, but still fully conscious of their body and their surroundings? I have difficulty sleeping. This is totally normal. I'm not concerned with it. So I'm trying to fall asleep. And I entered the beginning of a dream. But what's weird is...