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    What to do with this relationship? Coping with Sexual Assaults In Long Term Relationship.

    Thank you @Movingforward10. Was honestly just hoping to give a post relationship perspective. It took me a very long time to realize how unhealthy it all was. And how the reasons that I tolerated went further back than I knew. When I first left my husband, my T said something that has...
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    What to do with this relationship? Coping with Sexual Assaults In Long Term Relationship.

    I can truly relate to these words LucyLou. These thoughts of yours made me cry as I know exactly where your feelings are in this. I know that things from my childhood negatively affected it as well but during my marriage, particularly the last 10 years of it, this was very much my...
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    It wont stop replaying..sorry so long

    My T tells me the same. And just like you, I also think...."but it does matter". It's almost like I feel as though I can't any kind of closure/healing unless I see it all through from beginning to end. Like I have to have the whole story in order for me to finally believe it. And...
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    It wont stop replaying..sorry so long

    I so very much understand how you're feeling. I told my T quite awhile ago now and I still wobble back and forth between the fact that I know that these reactions and triggers that I have are coming from somewhere and the question of how can something so horrible be contained without conscious...
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    It wont stop replaying..sorry so long

    I relate to this very much. When i first told my T about my thing, the next 5 days my mind was swirling with 38 years of repressed emotion though i couldn't really identify what the emotions they were. Not sure how to describe it. Like if you drew a picture of someone's mind and then just...
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    Service Dogs (2023)

    I actually think they should be familiar with the feel of muzzles. Not because they're needed for everyday interaction. My dogs are always largely socialized with people, different situations and sounds, and other dogs. But God forbid you're traveling and get into an accident with your dog...
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    Service Dogs (2023)

    Also a Rottie owner and lover for 30+ years. I've always wondered how well the gentle leads would work but I've never gotten one and have never heard anyone mention then in my breeder group so I made the obviously incorrect assumption that maybe they didn't work very well so I'm glad it read...
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    Twitching and struggling to get words out when approaching trauma, anyone else?

    I have similar issues. When T and I get close enough to the bad thing, my twitching starts and he definitely notes it. If I try to pretend like we're not getting close to something (because it remains my ridiculous goal to attempt to throw him off and send his questioning into a different...
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    Easily startled/ friendships

    Just sharing that you aren't alone in this. I can see someone coming straight towards me and I'll still have what to them I'm sure appears to be an overdramatic reaction if turn my back before they reach me. But it's automatic. My body just does this thing all on its own. My co workers...
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    Therapy is hard!

    Thank you for that. Sincerely
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    Therapy is hard!

    I call it "the thing". I can call it what it is in my head, but I can't say the word. I don't mean I won't. I can't. I've tried. I can get the first letter out and that's it. It just stops. T has said the word and it immediately makes everything in me tense up and my eyes begin...
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    Does anyone go in and out of denial?

    All. The. Time. And like Freida.....I've lost count of how many times I've said to my T "You don't KNOW that this is all real. There is way too much that I've not been able to remember. Maybe I'm just better at telling stories than you are detecting lies. Maybe I'm just a really good...
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    Other Body Dysmorphia

    Very much so. For most of my life. My face, my ears, backside, front side, feet, legs.....pretty much all of it. Hate mirrors. Hate having my photo taken. Hate seeing myself in photos. T asked me the other day if there was anything physical about myself that I liked. I said years...
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    Quick solutions for panic attacks?

    This may sound silly....but it's helped me on numerous occasions. I literally start naming things to myself from my surroundings. Everything. Even if happens when I'm driving. In a store? I look at a person and start this dialogue with myself. In short, descriptive words. There's a...
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    Other Self triggering

    I can very much relate. To every part of it including not being able to say the word. And I'm very interested to know what your T tells you as I don't think that I can bring myself to ask the question. Even just responding to this is making my heart race. You're not alone in this and...
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