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I'm having a hard time being sober and dealing with memories and dreams,

Dislocation

I got nothing eles on this, I spent my whole life on and off the street, being funcrional to the degree of working any shit job i could to survive, and only became a part of the machine after a rather succseslf attempt at getting clean after almost a year in the hospital and another on dialysis...

Unsure, sad, lonely, hopeless

Julep

Well I've sobered up, took a shower and am going back to group this morning, hopefully find out when therapy will resume? This sucks because I've found that I have started lieing to my therapist sometimes about certian things as I've kinda noticed sometimes they dip into the "c'mon you already...

I feel the same way alot, why I relapsed and started drinking again recently, but have stopped again and am already regulating better, dealing with long term abuse is so overwhelming and seems like nothing can ever make you feel better, I'm sorry you feel like this, the only thing that keeps me...

I was also traumatized during the process of finally being paired with a clinician and was very weary at first, the person I'm working with is great for the most part and was aware of my trepidations surrounding trust in the beginning, and let me know that, and expessed understanding it may take...

When I was initally paired up with my clinician, being responsible, having had researched my background, asked if it would be ok to touch my hand or shoulder to "bring me back" if I started having responses during sessions, I said I didn't know but would prefer if they didn't, After working with...

I've spent my entire life trying to run away from myself and life, If I was independently wealthy I think I may have been able to pull it off?, but to what end? Two years ago I hit the wall and walked away from everything and went into seclusion for almost a year, living in a remote bush camp...

Was good to get back to group, good facilitator, mixes up 20ish min guided meditations and drops thier own subtle backgrounds in, also makes paper strips with essential oils to hand out for people that like them, then did a grounding exercise, doing cycles of deep breath, counting back from 10...

Realized I had to obtain sobriety again so meditated on that extensively while breathing, then did some meridian tapping, then did some more breathing, then went and actually bought some groceries instead of booze and cooked, I love cooking and find it really grounding when I'm off, the texture...

Used to love to read, like for many it's really hard these days, but I've been trying to chip my way through "10 best anxiety management techniques" from Margret Whernberg, also have been exploring the world of books on tape/audio books. Which I like for now but would really like to be able to...

Found only,..

Thin