Recent content by blue_eyes18

Embracing your sexuality can be hard enough as it is, when you don't add PTSD into the mix. The hesitation about telling your family and those you serve with is completely normal. Some people take years to embrace their sexuality and come out. You're just now figuring yourself out. Take your...

Anger and distancing are all common parts of PTSD. PTSD is an anxiety disorder, so sometimes, all that anxiety from outside sources can get placed onto you. Say, for example, that his PTSD symptoms are particularly bad and then his boss writes him up at work, his car won't start on the way...

Hi there. Welcome :) are you able to give any additional information? My ex partner has PTSD. That's what originally brought me to this forum, as well. I was at the end of my rope. Many of the members here were literal life savers for me. There are so many wonderful people here who are willing...

You have no idea how much I truly can relate to you, chava. I have pretty much eliminated all needs for myself. The only difference is that it was something you were raised with from an early age and I was only subjected to it as an adult. So I don't believe it's as engrained into me as it...

And nursenurse, you are right. I am diving into the minutiae. Ugh. Stop it, stop it, stop it! Lol. I'm getting there.

What you describe with your mother actually feels quite like what I experienced, chava. That if god forbid, you ever needed anything, you were made to feel that it was the end of the world and that you were seriously harming her in some type of way. If god forbid I ever needed something, like to...

For anyone who is interested, this is the conversation that ensued and her subsequent response to me after we got off the phone on Tuesday and she told me to call her on Thursday. Me (Thursday night): I just tried calling. Give me a call back when you have the time. Her: Hey sorry I'm eating...

Anarchy, you made an interesting point. You pointed out that those people can at least find peace in the knowledge that they are being wronged. I think that's what has plagued me for so long and kept me in this relationship. This guilt that I am to blame for the things that have happened and...

Joeylittle, thank you so much for such a wonderful reply. It was just what I needed. I was not aware that the DSM V had a much looser set of criteria. But I just don't know if I can get on board with her behavior just being that of PTSD. It seems every time I post a question on here about her...

I guess I just have the hardest time feeling like I did something to deserve this. I always blame myself for some reason. I keep reflecting back on the situation and try to find a way to make what happened my fault. All I know is she was true to her typical fashion and broke things off. We had...

Thank you, Anarchy, for that great information. It's really good to know. By the way, really quick, to answer your question, I am not diagnosed with PTSD. She is the one diagnosed and I'm the supporter. No diagnosis here, unless I develop it from this relationship. Lol. Sorry, bad joke. You...

Nursenurse - I've FINALLY woken up and now see the forest from the trees. I finally see that I've completely neglected myself and placed myself dead last for so long. I am finally ready to embrace that this is over and I need to take care of myself first and foremost. I feel like I took so much...

Has anyone ever experienced this before? My ex (sufferer) would push/pull me to death. One minute, we are the happiest couple there ever was, then the next, she would shove me away saying she couldn't handle a relationship. Then the cycle would continue. The worst part of all was that when she...

It wasn't me who ended the relationship. I never would have walked away because I was extremely committed to making us work. She was the love of my life and I wanted to marry her. We split because she hasn't gotten a good grip on her ptsd at all and it's always over run her life and...

Reading your story, I wondered if you were my ex. Lol. Same story line almost exactly. I've been in your SO's shoes. I can absolutely relate to both sides. Here is my two cents. My partner and I were together for two years. I had no real world understanding of PTSD before I met her. It was a...