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What is the crisis line number? NHS direct?

Thank you so much @Confused Wingless... I always try to share. I get very dependant on being able to talk to people but find that its hard to speak to friends aboit this. I have mentioned it but I dont want to freak them out or use it against me when I am better . I do find it cathartic writing...

sorry... I meant @Solara xx

@solera. I have been refreshing the page all night in the hope of helpful messages. I have got lots of helpful messages but I must say that was a great response and I can not thank you enough.

Thanks @Hashi sorry for being bad tempered I am extremely sensitive and just desperate for help. I spoke to the therapist tonight and he is shocked that the phone service can't offer me anything and says he will look into other services like Mind charity to see if they can provide mental health...

I haven't been in therapy a long time @Hashi. I don't understand either. It feels like you think I have brought this on myself. I cannot help the way I feel and I would do anything to stop this feeling. If I could use the coping skills I would. I guess I just haven't learned any that work yet...

@Confused Wingless I REALLY appreciate the compassion and support. Thank you so much. It's great to know I am not the only one who feels like this.

@Hashi I don't know I'm very confused. It sounds ridiculous to not know what I am thinking but I find it hard to regulate thoughts. I think it's because the mental health phone services kind of persuaded me it was normal and just intrusive thoughts. The therapist took it very seriously. I don't...

@Hashi- thanks. He taught me how to think of a safe place after doing exercises. He has also taught me how to do thought records. He has told me to stop doing the exposure work for now and to focus on improving mood. I know fluoxetine can cause suicidality. I felt like this before I took it too...

Any hugs are much appreciated. Thank you @Tigger123 It's embarrassing too because I have a job due to start soon in which I'm meant to be a pillar of the community. I think starting work will help. But I'd rather be knocked out than do it. You know Michael Schumacher in a coma? Sorry to be...

Still confused @sarafina. Just posted in depression and suicide forum. :-( We share the police trigger. Today I was in a restaurant with a yellow glass panel around the windows. Every time a white car drove past- the yellow made it look like a police car in the corner of my eye. It didn't help...

This may seem like a really strange post. But just bare with me. I am so confused. My suicidal thoughts started peaking about 2 months ago. I have had them off and on but I would dismiss them quickly. Then they started to evolve in my mind as a possibility and I did not get upset by them...

I guess you got what you needed in the end. Hope you are ok Stenni xx

Hi @Notsowild thanks for the comment. I just feel really cross that I am traumatised by this. I am sick of feeling like this. I find driving myself ok- but being in other cars I find hard to deal with. Being a pedestrian I find hard to deal with too. Hearing sirens, seeing police cars and...

@sarafina thanks for your concern. I'm not actively suicidal. I do have the means to do it but I would not do it. These are thoughts which plagued me a few weeks ago. Out of desperation I went on fluoxetine. I've amazingly felt better. However- was a bit paranoid that I was being duped because I...