Recent content by bluemoon_

Thank you for your reply! I have a big passion for writing stories, I use to write a lot when I was younger. So in regards to what you said, I suppose I could try and put all that creativity into writing and making up stories. Same as you I love creative arts so I can definitely see myself doing...

Thank you for your reply! I'm sorry your mom was the root cause of your estranged relationship with your younger brother. I'm glad you're seeking help through therapy, that's a step closer to healing, I'm doing the same thing. It's honestly a breath of fresh air. That's exactly it (regarding...

Yes, you are right, I have cut down on the pacing! This only happens every couple of weeks now which I can say that I am proud of. Anything I like to do that helps this is really listening to the lyrics of the song, like reading the lyrics along with the song. It sounds weird but it has actually...

Thank you for your reply. I am in therapy also and have brought this up with her too. It's just so hard to kick a habit that I was used to for so long. It feels impossible most days. But for my own sanity, I understand I need to stop. My therapist suggests thinking of lying in the meadow as...

Hey, this is my life's deepest regret. If you can please read my thread on COCSA as this might be more insightful for what's about to come (don't worry if not). This is something that affects me every day of my life, whether on a small or large scale but as a kid, I was mean to my little sister...

Hey, I never really knew about maladaptive daydreaming, well what it was called, and how negatively impactful it is, until recently on TikTok. I started to do this activity whilst in the car where music would play, around 4/5, and I would just go somewhere that's better, where I was better. If...

I have been inactive for quite a while on this thread as it was too hard to read. I think the worst part about it is that although I am very grateful and appreciative of your kind words, I can't help but think I do not deserve it as I have made my sister, who I was supposed to protect, feel...

Hey Mach, Thank you for your kind words! I will be purchasing that book, thank you for the advice. I have searched therapy that helps me process what I am going through but unfortunately I have not been successful. Can I ask why you might think it is CSA? As we were both children at the time so...

I'm glad that I was able to help! Journaling is something I am definitely going to get into, I didn't know about yoga, thanks for the advice! Sending love also <3 Thank you for the advice!!! Very much appreciated, I will give it a go <3

Hi Anthony, Thank you so much for your reply! Typing it and sending it was like a weight lifted of my chest. When you said it was just children experimenting and it is not in fact COCSA has really helped me and has really opened my eyes. However, I still can't escape this guilt feeling but...

So I haven't shared this with anyone ever and I'm not sure if anyone will understand or make sense of this but here it goes... At the age of 4, I was introduced to the idea of sex. My uncle, who is 4 years older than me ( so 8 at the time) got along really well. We would play video games in his...