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i have him, and 2 other friends (one a businessman, another a student too) They are helping me, though not everytime, the other two also lives in Manila, and i am around 2 hours away from them so most talks throughout the week are made through skype or mobile phone. but during severe attacks...

yes, my goal is to save him, so he won't get videotaped again. i will try your suggestion, but i do know it's hard. thanks.

i feel responsible if in any case, he gets videotaped again. and i part, i fear that if it happens again, they might get me again to save him from shame. :(

i am actually only 19. and there are only 5 people who knows about this. including me, him, the psych and 2 other people. we have tried a lot of possible treatments, but i feel hopeless as i have changed only a little. until this point in time, i see those people following me everywhere i go...

it has been explained to me by my psychiatrist for a lot of times,. but limiting him has been my only relief. :(( i understand my psychiatrist, but i can't do anything every time i'm triggered, i can't apply her advices. :(( thanks for the help. =)

yes he is the same as the friend i did the exchange for. every contact he makes with anyone whom i do not know is my trigger. another is when i can not confirm he is safe. I appreciate his efforts, like being with me most of the times, talking with me even at the late hours of the day. i fear he...

I was sexually and physically abused by people of the same gender as mine. I was forced to have sex with them as an exchange of some scandalous vids of a special friend. That was almost 6 months ago. Until now, I still have those flashbacks, dreams and others. What I am afraid of is that those...