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Also praying I'm getting more than 5 hours tonight, thatd be great.

Found this on my tablet, posting to add to the list of things to talk to my T about tomorrow, I'm going to try get some sleep now. September 3rd: Today sucked, its the anniversary of my late best friends suicide, and I happened to check Fb and the "years ago" thing, out of curiosity, a week...

Thank you Joey 💜 And thats exactly what it was, a skyscraper 🥲 (Great analogy by the way!) I Think I want to build a safe and cozy space for myself in midst of all the rubble and tall buildings, a little house with a patch of grass and tall trees, somewhere to go when the storms coming 😊 I...

Third injection last night went well, today I'm just crying as I am happy to be alive. Is it really okay for me to be happy like this? It's such an unknown feeling, is it even okay for me to be here? in the forum? I dont even know, I just know that I'm trying to figure out who this new person...

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Random rant I suppose, but I finally got some fight in me again, so you know I'll use this to my advantage >:)

And one thing, my T told me one very important thing, that made me feel a little better about myself I suppose 😊 That narcissists mirror your good, or desirable traits, so what you did essentially, was fall in love with yourself. And it made me think, maybe I'm not so bad? Idk it made sense...

Second Ketamine injection, I had a different nurse, and lets just say I didnt like her very much. I have a bloodphobia and also a phobia of needles, she missed 4 times and lets just say that blood squirted everywhere and I had a bad trip 🥲 She was also pretty cold and professional, but in a...

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Ok so 2nd day after Ketamine treatment, I picked up my art supplies and started working on personal stuff, not because I had to, because I just had this deep need to create. So far, I took my sleep medication the day when I got the treatment, I slept a full 8 hours! Uninterrupted, and holy...

Despite the "newfound" separation anxiety, I'm still able to be home alone. What made me smile though, was my partner grabbing my face kissing it all over, making sure I got todays 'quota', before he left to hang out with the guys. He's just absolutely adorable 😭❤ I'm so lucky to have someone...

Dominos and Cola after a whole day of fasting. (It was good, but I am now paying the price 🤣 I cant handle greasy foods lmao)

Ok so update on IV Ketamine, I went in to the K hole as they call it, and oh man was it an experience, I honestly just went with it, and I felt so at ease, like I was one with everything, and at some point I just started crying, my face mask got really moist, I was crying ACTUAL TEARS. I was...

I thought I had fixed my sleep pattern, but it only lasted for one night because I was stressing out about keeping it 😅 Contradictory much??? Anyways, I sent a message to my Ex Boss, something I've been trying to do for almost three years now, because I need my stuff for one, and also because...