Recent content by Carlycat

Hi shimmerz Thanyou so much for getting back to me. I have been so up and down with this last few days and have been trying to think about what you said. The person is a family member. I am torn between understanding that he needs support and just wanting him to be far away. I am worried that...

Hi there I found out yesterday that my main abuser is moving back to town and it has thrown me completely. I feel sick at the thought. For years he has lived further away and because of his mental health problems he struggles with public transport so I felt safer that he would never turn up...

Thanks for the help everyone. I am still working on this. I have gotten a little further by suspending belief for a short period occasionally in my session. I then get the inevitable backlash that I have said too much and feel stupid. Because I have done a lot of work on my own there are...

Hi all Thank you so much for your responses and advice. I will try as many of them as possible. I am trying to talk with the bit of me I think may be responsible. The bit that really hates us. I do this when I am at home on my own and try to remember to check in with them as to where they’re at...

Hi shimmerz thank you for replying. I will try some of your suggestions. I might try a tracking app or something similar. Could I ask how it stopped eventually? How did yo manage to get to that preverbal part to stop it? I feel this is a similar thing for me. Thanks again

Hi shodokanjenn. I know this post is old. I hope you are feeling a little better. I’m experiencing a similar thing. My question is how to stop myself when I don’t know it’s happening? I’ve ‘woken up’ holding a knife in one hand about to stab myself and the other hand is trying to stop it. I...

Why I am I so protective of my privacy? I have been trying to think about this question and thank you for asking it. Basically I didn’t have any privacy as a child, physically as well as emotionally. I guess I had to keep a lot of secrets when I was younger and I feel I am an honest person...

Hi all. Thank you so much for your input. I’ve had a session since I last posted and managed to talk about a few things that have been bothering me about now. In a jokey way but at least I tried. I managed to actually talk at all which is a step forward! I agree that talking about the reasons...

Thank you for your replies everyone including the PM person. I do write a lot and sometimes draw too but the problem is sharing anything. The thought of showing my therapist these things is too embarrassing. I have been doing the work, I have got to the point of having some semblance of a...

Hi there Thank you very much for getting back to me. My therapist is wonderful and has tried many things to help me. She is very patient and tells me often that I don’t need to say anything I don’t want to. I just don’t trust anybody. I went there because of one thing and I wasn’t expecting it...

Hi there I have been in therapy for about six months and am not getting very far. I have remembered a lot of things but can’t talk about them at all. I think trying to find a way to talk to another person about it is worse than just remembering what happened and dealing with it myself. Surely...