Recent content by Cavegirl

You are not alone. I wish I could offer you more than that. But it’s all I have. I truly understand feeling like a zombie. I feel like that too. I feel like a “pretend” human. I wish they could figure out what chemical in our brains is missing. Or whatever is wrong. It’s not will power. I know I...

i need to vent. I feel like I can’t talk to anyone in my life. They’ll either think I’m... crying wolf, or just feeling sorry for myself... I don’t know. Sometimes I think my therapist doesn’t see the real me. I’m a master at holding myself together. Correction. “Appearing” to be holding...

Thank you. It’s tough, but I’m determined to do this.

Thank you guys for your input. I don’t really want to be a med/surg nurse. My dream is DNP. I’m not sure I can take 6 more years if this. I’m hoping I find an area I love in clinical. Funnily enough we did glucose checks on our fellow students yesterday. Some had problems poking their fellow...

I’ve wanted to be a nurse for 35 years. Finally got the guts to go for it 2 1/2 years ago. I did 2 years of prerequisites, got awesome grades, full points on my entrance exam. This is end of my 3rd week. Yesterday we had our first patient assessment skills check off. It’s pass/fail. If you...

Going through a med change, switched therapists because I felt my old T minimized my feelings. I'm just... Overwhelmed. My anxiety and fear are taking over my life. I'm waking up in the middle of the night again. My vivid nightmares are back, as is my feeling of despair and hopelessness. I'm...

I had a blanket in my trunk so I hid under it in my car and slept. Then I got an ice cream cone and ate it really slowly on the drive home. Those are all good suggestions, thank you. I can't do phone or internet unfortunately. Next week my mom might be able to take me, but I can't go by...

I switched to a new therapist, this would have been our 3rd visit. I live a bit over an hour away. (Due to $, insurance etc I drive to a Native Clinic is why it's far) well I get extremely anxious driving sometimes. Today it's particularly bad. I had to stop less than halfway there and cancel...

My dr. Switched me from Effexor to cymbalta last month because Effexor seemed to not be working. I also take Wellbutrin. Getting off the Effexor was brutal, but withdrawal symptoms seem to be lessening. I'm so far not seeing any change w the cymbalta. I'm starting to worry nothing will help...

I have a hard time with 9/11. I don't live there and did not lose any loved ones. I do have loved ones that were in the military in the years that followed and see how they are still affected. But I have a difficult time regulating the emotions it brings up in me, sadness, fear, desperation...

I almost texted him this evening. I actually had it typed out before I came to my senses. I never delete old text threads etc. but tonight I deleted every single trace of him out of my phone. It feels empowering. I no longer have to worry about if I should write him, etc. it's no longer an...

Thank you so much for your comments. I felt my eyes pop open wide reading it. You're right... Why only believe the negative comment from the liar?

Fell for him... Now I find out he is not only not single like he said, but LIVES with his gf. He says he just was lonely and wanted to be my friend. Lied to me about being interested in me because he didn't think I'd be his friend otherwise. I know that I shouldn't be affected by others...

Today he contacted me at 6:30 am. He thought we were making plans this morning. I'm seeing him this evening. I have noticed he will not say he wants to see me. I get, "I'm not doing anything.... if you want to come out you're welcome to" I asked him point blank if he wanted me to come see him...