Recent content by Cryptantha

I hear good and bad voices. I hear my aunt's voice repeating "You're fat, you're ugly, you're lazy, you're stupid, and no one is EVER going to love you." when I fail at anything, or when I'm just being hard on myself. I try to lessen my self-criticism and usually it stops. I hear good voices...

I used to faint like this VERY often, sometimes 2-3 times a day. Feeling paralyzed, I could only make very small movements and trying to get up again just meant fainting again. The fainting has lessened considerably since I learned to listen to my body and not overdo it. It also helped that I...

1 hour DDR on Standard and Heavy training. 60 steps earned for Etrian Odyssey Exercise.

30 mins intense Difficult training on DDR. Even after asthma attacks last night (with no rescue inhaler to use) I can do it after rest! 58 steps earned for Etrian Odyssey Exercise.

I thought it was normal for a 6-year-old to bring her Dad's meds with her to school so he wouldn't kill himself while she learned. I thought it was normal to have 8 hour time-outs with no moving and blank wall at age 8. I thought hitting was just "bullying" and not abuse, no matter how hard it...

I can learn languages quickly given books, knit lace, and translate from one language to another. I can write well, but often don't bother to try.

30 mins DDR, 47 steps earned for Etrian Odyssey Exercise. High leg pain day, still managed, yay!

Saturday 2 hours DDR on Basic and Difficult difficulties. 200 steps earned for Etrian Odyssey Exercise. Today 30 mins DDR on Basic difficulties. 69 steps earned for Etrian Odyssey Exercise. Legs super tired from long car rides for Pony cards, but I did it, yay!

30 minutes DDR on Basic and Difficult Difficulties! 64 steps for Etrian Odyssey Exercise!

Hello and welcome! You're not alone here. People are quite kind. I'm glad you have a good T, that makes a big difference, along with sheer will to improve yourself! Good day or bad, we'll be here.

I do believe the abuser can sometimes live inside an abuse victim. We perpetuate things they said/did in our minds, sometimes even recreating events. I personally hear my aunt's voice, the mantra of "You're fat, you're ugly, you're stupid, you're, lazy, and NO one will ever love you!" I tell...

I'm going to agree with everyone here. Revenge doesn't help, only hurts worse. If you can, channel that rage and frustration into something positive. For me it's exercise or cleaning to work off that excess. If that doesn't work, maybe hitting a pillow, shouting into it, writing letters to your...

30 minutes Dance Dance Revolution on Basic difficulty. 70 steps for my Etrian Odyssey Exercise plan!

Weighted blankets exist?! Oh wow, I must look into that. I love it cold in the room so my cocoon of blankets feeling like someone hugging me doesn't overheat me.

I think this is a great question, how to start this process of connecting positive emotion with sex. I was a victim of sexual abuse too, and it can be difficult. I personally have found that I have to take very small baby steps. Even groping was a trigger for me. Having my boyfriend explain that...