Recent content by devildoc130

So... I went to the group session. It was called OCPP and we all learned CBT techniques/mindfullness. It was actually a very good group. At first I was a bit nervous but after being there for awhile it was easier to open up. The group lasted a week. I am also thinking about going to a PTSD group...

It's totally okay! Thank you @Hashi. I'll let you all know how group goes.

It's been a few weeks now.. and things have settled down. I still have these reoccuring thoughts but they're not as bad as before. I've talked to my therapist about everything....so... The hospital I work at, will be sending me (against my will... because I was sent to inpatient mental...

Yes I have a therapist and a psychiatrist. I've been seeming both for a long time. I've been having suicide thoughts everyday. It's been really bad. When I sit alone and eat my lunch before going into the or. I hear then, the doctors, nurses, techs, and I feel like they would be better off...

So lately, I've been not caring about my job, my friends, my life. I've been breaking down almost everyday crying my eyes out with emotion about my ptsd experience. But see, I've been getting in trouble at work just so I can feel those normal emotions everyone experiences. (sleeping in late for...

@Amne I understand. I tend to disassociate... and it works. It hasn't happened for awhile, since i was told to take my prazosin during the morning as well as at night. And now im on a benzo again. So overall things are going well.. I hope everything gets better for you.Stay strong, we will both...

@rainy_daze I know that feeling all too well. I try and put a "front" on at work and everyone thinks I'm this happy go lucky person. But really inside.. I'm so wired I feel like if one more thing happens, im going to break.

Today, I'm taking it easy, one foot in front of the other. Listneing to all my favourite music. I called my mother yesteday and it actually helped a lot. Was able to talk and eventually fell asleep. @BlackbirdSinging thank you so much for your post. I used your technique and told myself, "you're...

Thank you for replying back. Appreciate the support.

I tend to purposely disassociate from reality to stop this..which works, however afterwards I feel even worse. Most likely because I am coming back to "reality" and I hate being there. I wish I could drift off somewhere else where everything is normal. Where I can breath..and I can experience...

So today it's noon in Okinawa and I had to leave work because my hands wont stop shaking. It doesn't help that I work as a surgical first assistant. My heart is racing and I keep trying to relax, but it's like a chore to do so.I've had PTSD for over 3 years, prior military trauma. Today it's...

I am feeling shakey, nervous, like I am being tossed around under the waves. when I come up for air I just choke on more water. Gasping for my breath. Trying to regain my balance.

I experience the same exact feeling. My therapist calls it disassociation as well. For me, I disassociate on purpose to bring myself away from the world, from the "trigger" that's bothering me. I'm somwhere between myself and the "normal" world. I tend to do it so much, other people ask me if...

I am currently in a bit of the same situation. I haven't dated in forever, mostly because I hate being around people who do not understand me. And when I'm with someone who does, it doesn't last long because im in the military. I've found out normal relationships don't exist here. Plus my last...

@AvoidanceRulez, I'm about to ask my doc for a rx for anxiety as well. I used to have one but stopped using it. @disconnect, I've been experiencing increased panic attacks as well. Over the last few days. I haven't slept in 48 hours and it doesn't help that I work in the service, overseas. I've...