Recent content by Douleur

I find myself frequently having inexplicable anxiety. It's a feeling that consumes my body. I feel a tension in my chest. I can't focus. I tried taking anti anxiety medication in the past, but that dulls my senses and worsens my depression. I also thought about overdosing on the pills, so they...

Thankful for the words of encouragement. Just about lost it in a cab this afternoon to try to get a standby flight back home. I find being alone with men anxiety provoking. I hate how I feel these days, essentially weak have tried so hard to prove to myself that I am strong and I feel like that...

Just checking to see if any of you in San Francisco have been meeting up.

Thanks, Lionheart. Yeah, the prospect of death doesn't sound too awful these days. The odd contradiction is the fact that I love life so much. I just wish sometimes that someone, something would be gracious enough to eliminate this pain for me. I had to leave work for three months in the fall...

Thanks for your quick and kind response. I usually am shy about online forums, but feel at the end of my rope. The rape was three years ago and I simply thought I would be past the symptoms by now. It is so hard to understand what I am going through. I feel like few others can comprehend the...

First solo trip since I was raped three years ago. I haven't been able to sleep and have been extra vigilant. Feeling pretty fragile. Feel like a burden and crazy. So tired of dealing with this and though I am seeing a therapist, I feel like I'm never going to get better. Have a loving husband...