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My sleep has been all over the place for years. I sleep too little but now I sleep too much but during the day. I get terrors at night and but not when the fatigue of no proper sleep makes me sleep the next day.I should say that I live in rural Ireland and there is nobody that specialises in...

I really appreciated your post Reclusive. I can empathise with a lot of what you said. I'd like to think that like you I might one day have a working relationship with ptsd although I have a long way to go yet.

Whether it be ptsd or any other illness that people aren't familiar with, they choose to dismiss it as shrink talk and so there can't be anything to it. I wouldn't give the time of day to anyone who said i was using ptsd as an excuse for anything. It's bad enough living with it let alone...

The thing that finally made me finally accept I had ptsd was because of my children. I had looked after them on my own from the time they were babies as their mother has alcohol issues. I was diagnosed with ptsd in the final stages of looking after them and I didn't think about it seriously as a...

Daisy I keep thinking that all the weepiness will pass if I can just work out what's causing it. It doesn't work - a few words of a song or something on tv - the most mundane thing and it will set me off again. I've resolved to do the writing thing and if I were in a good enough place I might...

I think i had the symptoms from age 18 but didn't realize it at all. I was already hanging in there emotionally and any time I had a chance of feeling like I belonged an event would happen that would knock me straight back down. If it were little things that had knocked me back I would have been...

Life outside of a comfort zone really sucks. I leave my house as little as possible. Like others have said the slightest noise or unexpected occurrence and I'm all over the place. Staying indoors and seeing nobody (I don't actually know anybody and haven't for years.) is safety for me. I hate...

I am to tell her everything going on in my life and report to her, where I am going and when I will be home. Really. Now I have three sisters that say I am selfish because I declined this tempting offer. Sound familiar to anyone or am I that unique.... brat - it sounds all too familiar to me...

ritchwitch Yes they are, because aside from all the hurt they do to you they take away your ability to cope and your resistance to the ugliness of their words. They drain you of your morals and scruples - take away your pride and then discard you, but if something ever happens to them you can...

I don't see my family anymore but when I did my siblings would always ask me why I wouldn't let go of things done to me by my father and ask me why I couldn't leave it in the past and I would say that I couldn't because it hadn't even been acknowledged let alone dealt with. I stopped going on...

I hope so too brat, I doubt it will happen for me and to be honest I wouldn't even know where to start. I don't trust anybody. Its scary that the real world is such an intimidating place but it's good to have somewhere to start examining all this stuff as you said.

People have said that to me as well but for some reason that I can't pin down, being good to myself seems wrong. I think people who take advantage know that with each mess they get themselves into we will keep coming back, even when logic says it's a terrible idea. There are just a lot of people...

Thanks for that - it is good to know I'm not the only one who feels the way I do. I've never met another person who has ptsd and I'm only beginning to accept that I have it myself. Bone crushingly lonely just about sums it up for me. Like I said, good to not be alone.

I'm glad I'm not alone in feeling that way. Sometimes I have to remind myself that yes - one person really did cause so much damage, because I can scarcely believe it myself

I have never been good at communicating with women but now that I could really use a true companion my skills are non-existent and the lonliness is for me the most damaging factor in dealing with the ptsd. Having nobody - no friends or family to lean on makes me hold it all in and not confront...